The music blared in my ears, the senior dance , prom. A dance, in memory of my juggie. I tried to dance, I tried to be happy. He loved writing, he loved food, he loved horror movies and that stupid beanie, god. And he loved me, well I hope he loved me, he said he did. I wasn't enough. I never am, I thought I was, just for a split second. V-come on B! I know you miss him, but it's been a while , let loose a little! B-you want me to let loose? He died a fucking month ago! V-yeah B-oh! I'm fucking sorry that I miss my boyfriend, who killed himself! V-Betty, you know that's not what I meant! B-he said he loved me, that I was enough, but he didn't stay! I needed him, I need him! V-hey! I'm sorry ok, I know how much you loved h- B-love him, I still love him V-......how much you love him, I just don't want my best friend to be sad a- B-I'm not fucking sad! I told you I got diagnosed with depression! You never listen! V-you know that's not what I meant I walk away from the dance floor, and towards the bleachers, I sit down and fiddle with my dress that fell to the floor
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Just then Chuck and Moose came over, (a/n in this they're nice) Chuck- hey betty B-hey guys M-just want to know something B-what M-why are you wearing this lovely dress to prom, I know that you posted on your instagram that you were gonna wear a pink ballgown Chuck-dude, you know why M-shit! I'm so fucking sorry B-it's fine Chuck-I'm sorry again betty, let's go you idiot M-sorry They walked on and I saw chuck hit moose's head, at least he know why Flashback B-I'm not feeling this one J-baby, I can't see, your in the dressing room. B-I'm coming I walked out of the dressing room to see jug, looking at me. J-it's orange B-yeah J-and ballgown B-yeah, I don't like it J-neither, it's hurting my eyes B-my mum chose it J-is she ok? B-is she ever? Next one J-ok I'll be waiting I walked back into the room and carefully took the dress of, then picked up the blue one (a/n picture ^^) I looked into the mirror and turned around, a low back, but it comes with a cardigan like thing, I walked out and stood there, looking at my feet and blushing J-wow B-do I look bad? Is it enough? J-you look, amazing, you are enough. He came up to me and lifted my chin, he took my hand in his and the other on my waist, I put mine on his shoulder We waltzed around the room, slowly J-I'm really on the ropes this time, I've been fighting all my life for you, I never should have said goodbye, but maybe that's what stupid people do B-cause you gave me peace and I wasted it, I'm here to admit that you were my medicine. Oh, I couldn't quit, and I'm down on my knees again, asking for nothing. J+B- thank you for the happiest year of my life, thank you for the happiest year of my life, ooh J-you are beautiful, stunning, as always B-I love you juggie J-I love you more I kissed his cheek and ran to the next one, a pink ballgown, more me. I walked out and stood in front of the mirror. B-it's less expensive because of the material and it's pink. J-your still stunning I blushed and tried to hide my smile. 1 week later Hey jug, it's me again. Please answer my calls I'm getting worried, I'll be home a little late, traffic sucks. Call me. B-fuck me. I looked outside me window and watched the rain pour down, the night sky blurred with dark clouds. A green light, go. Then my phone rang, I put it on speaker B-hello? Fp-hey Betty, your mum and I are just heading back from the station B-ok, um have your heard from jug, I've called him a bunch of time and he's not picking up. Fp-no, he hasn't answered my calls, Alice either. I'll get Alice to call JB and see if he's said anything. B-ok I drove to the on the road, then FP spoke again Fp-no, he hasn't picked up, is he ok? B-I don't know, I know that his depression was bad, we were taking our pills together, along with my anxiety pills. He seemed to be getting better. I'm worried Fp-so am I, where are you now? B-just pulling up to the house Fp-we'll be five minutes B-ok, bye Fp-bye I ended the calls and put all the stuff in my bag, grabbing the pops that jug made me to and get. I quickly ran to the door and unlocked it. I put the pops bag on the island and took my jacket of B-jug?! B-you home?! I walked to the stairs and walked up them B-jug?! I walked to our room and saw that the bathroom light was shining through the gap underneath the door. B-jug, you in the shower?! B-baby? You ok?! I knocked on the door and got out my phone B-Fp Fp-hey, what's up B-I think Jung is in the bathroom, he won't open the door. Fp-ok, try and unlock to door, we aren't that far. Bye B-bye I got out a bobby pin and fiddled with it, then put it in the lock and twisted it, then it finally unlocked. I opened the door and saw, jug. In the bathtub, wrists slit and the water turned red. B-oh my god. I knelt down, and brought him to my chest, I tried to cover his wrists with my hands but I couldn't. Then I heard the front door slam. B-FP! Help! Call an ambulance! Mum! I heard footsteps quickly come up the stairs and in the bathroom. Fp-jug A-I'll call an ambulance B-you can't leave me, you can't Fp- lets get him out. Fp lifted him out and we brought him onto my bed, I got some towels and wrapped them around his wrists B-there's too much blood, the towels aren't doing anything! Tears ran down my race, sobs escaping my throat, everything was blurry Fp-Come on jug! B-please don't leave me. I applied more pressure, we heard paramedics, rush into my room; and rush him to the hospital B-you go Fp-your mums coming too, get your car and meet us there, call the others I nodded, they ran out, I heard the ambulance drive to the hospital. B-oh my god! I collapsed onto my floor, my throat felt raw from sobbing. I slowly picked up my phone and calling the group chat. A-hey Betty, V-hey b Ch-hello cousin T-hey Cooper K-hey Betty boop F+SP-hello, Betty I cried into the phone V-B, what's wrong? B-he, h-h-he did some-something *cries* Sp-who? B-j-jug A-what did he do betty. B-he, he-he s-slit his w-w-Wrists *cries* I f-fou-found him. In t-th-the tub. *sobs* F-oh my god I ended the call and ran to my car, I drove there as fast as I could, not caring If I broke a speeding rule. I parked and rushed in. B-Jughead Jones! Receptionist- sorry hun? B-Forsythe Pendleton Jones III Receptionist- room 486, top floor B-thank you Receptionist- no problem hun. I ran to the lift, it was busy, I burst through the stairwell and ran as fast as I could. I finally got there, to see FP and mum sitting there. They looked up and me. Fp-he's gone, he doesn't have much time left, I said my goodbye They walked out and I sat next to jug. And held his hand. B-hey, it's me. Betty, I love you. I don't know what to say. Remember that time where we we are Cheryls party and you made me jump, from swimming between my legs, and when you actually became friends with everyone. I love you..........squeeze my hand three times if you love me. I waited and waited, then as I was about to leave I felt three squeezes. I looked over at him and tears left my eyes. I stroked his cheek; my hand fiddling with his hair. B-do you wanna let go. Squeeze If you do. I eventually felt a squeeze B-that's ok, I promise I'll look after everyone here. He squeezed my hand again B-I love you Four squeezes I.Love.You.More Then one long ring, I looked over and saw that his heart stopped beating,I kissed his hand, I quickly got out some scissors, that I had in my nail kit, and I cut of a piece of his hair, I a piece of string around it. 1 week later I stood in front of his newly sub grave. Beanie In my hand and jacket around my arms. I placed a kiss on the stone and walked home. Into our room. I saw all his clothes, when he moved in we redecorated, it was a light blue; his writing trophies, awards, clothes and his beanie. Then the necklace he gave me. I put the beanie on, and walked to the bathroom. The tub; white again, my clothes from that day, under my bed, my sheets, still bloody. I'll be dead before anyone could wash them. A-hey baby I walked out of the bathroom and into my bed. Getting under the covers and snuggling into them A-hungry? I shook my head, she walked towards me and kissed my cheek, then left my room. Flashback over I sat there, listening to the songs, getting lost in my own mind. Then. Music-I'm really on the ropes this time, I've been fighting all my life for you, I never should have said goodbye, but maybe that's what stupid people do. I looked around and saw a few people looking at me, tears slowly fell onto my cheeks. Music-cause you gave me peace and I wasted it And I'm here to admit that you were my medicine I get up and walk out, into the hallway, I walked and walked until someone grabbed my arm Music-oh I couldn't quit A-betty B-what? A-Come on, happy memories B-what happy memories? Music-and I'm down on my knees again, asking, for nothing A-when you kissed and cuddled B-I'll never have that moment again! Never. He told me he loved me! Music-thank you for the happiest year of my life B-he said he loved me more, he told me I was enough! It my fault! A-no, it isn't! B-he wanted me to get pops, he always come with me, in case there was a change in the fucking menu, he didn't come with me, and I didn't think! I just walked out, no question as to why he wasn't coming! It's my fault Music-thank you for the happiest year of my life ooh B-he left me! And I don't know what to do! He left me! Alone! Don't say anything about him, or me, you don't know anything. I walked out of the school, and into my car, I buckled my seatbelt, then screamed. Hitting the wheel over and over and over again! I got home, walked past everyone and into our bedroom, it's not my bedroom, it's still ours. I walked in and saw the covers were, white, no red parts, I ran over and removed the duvet, the sheets were as white as day. I walked downstairs and they all looked up. B-why would you do that?! A-baby- B-no! It's one of the only things I had left, don't you dare go in my room again! I'll do my own laundry! A-we need to wash those clothes baby B-no! We don't, no! Stay out of my room. I quickly ran upstairs and grabbed, one of his jackets, his beanie and the clothes I found him in. I then walked downstairs and grabbed my car keys, along with my wallet. I got to my car and drove to the nearest clinic. I put on his jacket, and his beanie, I put my clothes in my compartment, and quickly kissed the tiny bit of hair I cut form him. I got out and walked over to the isle. Bought what I needed and went to a gas station. Went to the bathroom and peed. Then. Pregnant God.
