Bug head oneshots

Not a happy memorty pt 2

I looked at the stick, just staring, I was there fo what felt like two seconds.
*knock knock*
??-you ok in there hun, you've been in there for 30 minutes
B-um, yeah just coming out.
I quickly pulled up my underwear and walked out, I got some water and walked to the counter. Payed for the water and left.
I got into my car, and just sat there, I took of his beanie, and took my hair out of its low pony, I brought his beanie up to my nose and smelt the cologne he used to wear, I still spray it on his clothes when I wear them, I have two other bottles of it, so I have a few spare. I cried into his beanie, tears escaping me eyes. Then cries, then sobs and soon enough my throat was raw with cries. Begging for water. I hugged his beanie, kissed it and put it back on my head. I opened the water with my shakey hands, then somehow went to jugs old trailer, I walked in, and walked into his room. The scent of him lingered around the furniture. I walked over to his bed, took of my dress and his jacket, I put on a old shirt that he kept there in case we had a fight. I slipped it on, taking of my bra, I lifted up the duvet, crawling in, wresting my head on his pillow, I put my left hand under the pillow and the other on my stomach.
B-I'll be here for you little bug, I promise. Your daddy loves you, you know he's an angel now. A beautiful angel, probably begging to wear dark clothes, no white. He's an angel, so am I. But I'm lost, my home is here, but also there. Your daddy, went home, but we are going to wait until we pass naturally, I love you bug.
8 months later.
I moved into the trailer a few months ago, I moved all the clothes, trophies, everything. I miss him. I got a tattoo, it's his name, and then my love after that.
I'm having twins, Juliet and Forsythe Pendleton IV. I got up and walked to the counter to make a snack. Then I felt something move.
B-ow
Then water dropped down my leg, soaking my chill shorts. My water just broke.
B-no no no, your a month early.
I tried to reach the door, but it hurt to much, I slid to the floor. Back against my bedroom door (opposite the front door) I took a deep breath in
B-my phone, where's my phone.
Ring ring
I heard it, it was in the living room.
A contraction hit me, out of nowhere
B-ahhhh
B-Help! Toni! Fangs! Sweets!! Help.
A few hours passed, I managed to get my shorts and underwear off, then putting my dress over my knees and my dressing down under my legs, as a towel and a flannel shirt as another
Knock knock
B-help!
T-betty?
B-Toni, help me
She came in wi sweets and Fangs, when they saw me they froze.
B-ow, ahhhh!
T-hey, it's ok
She knelt down beside me
Sp- I'll call a ambulance.
Fp-you need a cold towel or something for your forehead?
I nodded, he quickly wet a small towel and folded it for me. Then put it on my forehead.
They both held my hand; sweets came back in, put the phone on the floor and then on speaker.
??-hi, is Betty there
B-yeah
??-I'm Rachel, call me r, ok?
B-ok
R-ok, we are going to get those babies out safe and sound
B-ok
R-the ambulance is on its way, stay calm, breathe in and out.
I followed her instructions and then I felt them lower.
B-they're coming, I have to push!
R-fangs check how far dilated she is, after what I told you, you should know.
Fangs checked and looked up at me.
F-it's definitely time
R-ok push
I pushed, then the paramedics barged in and Fangs moved out of the way, He held my hand while Toni held my right one. Sweets sat beside Fangs, comforting me.
R-bye Betty your in good hands
It disconnected.
??-I'm kat and this is rose, we are here to help
B-I have to push!
R-ok, ready?
I nodded; they helped me with my breathing
R-push!
B-aahhhHHHH!
R-atta girl, come on, I can see the top of the head.
B-ahhh!
I wiped the sweat of me, crying I thought of jug. He needed to be there.
B-I can't.
T-yes, you can
B-I can't, I can't do it. I can't
F-Betty, you have this
B-I can't
Sp-why
B-he needs to be here, I can't
T-betty, he would want you to do this.
I looked at her
B-ahh!
T-he'd want you to do this, hive your children life.
I nodded, I pushed with all my might.
I felt my little baby, slip from my body.
B-why isn't it crying
K-we just need to clear his air ventilation
They were at it for ages, I have no ideas how long I waited there for.
K-I'm sorry
I cried and cried, leaning into Toni, she wrapped her arms around me.
B-was it the girl or boy?
K-the girl
I nodded and cried again.
B-ow! It's happening again!
R-ok betty, one more time, then you can relax.
Pain
Pain
Pain
Pain
Pain
Pain
I felt my body go limp, just a little.
No cry again
I looked and saw they were doing the same thing, it wasn't working.
They tried for ages, the placenta eventually came out and I looked at them, trying to get him back.
K-betty.
B-no, no. He can't be gone.
R-I'm sorry
B-no, your lying!
I cried and cried until I couldn't breathe
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2 months later. I walked away from the geave that now had Juliet and Four in, my little nickname. I placed a new bunch of Roses and walked to the trailer. I told everyone to just leave me alone for a while. I walked back, and wrote a short letter.
Hey, I'm sorry. That what I wanted to say, I'm sorry I'm not strong enough. I miss him, I never heard their cry's but I wanted to, so badly. So I will, I'll be with them. It's not your fault. I want to be buried with jug and our babies.
Yours, Betty
I placed it on the kitchen table and walked to the bathroom, I ran the bath, change into one of his shirts; I got out some razors and quickly made the trailer tidy. I walked back to the bathroom, for in. Turned the water of and grabbed a razor. I pushed it deep into my skin and dragged to across. Quickly doing it with the other. I leant my head back, I looked around and saw the stars shining. Then darkness.
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B-hello?
J-Betts?
B-jug?!
I ran to him and saw him with out two little babies. I ran to them. We kissed; and then placed our heads against each other.
J-I'm sorry
B-so am I