It's Just Acting

ten.

LIZ

I didn't mean to make him mad.

I was just so frustrated. All he ever did was flirt. And it was even more frustrating, because I knew that the flirting, was just acting.

He flirted with everyone. He flirted with Ari, Vic, every girl on the Victorious set, and me. I wanted to be the only one. Not one of the very many.

But was it fair to be mad? No.

He could flirt with whoever he wanted to flirt with.

I just really wished he didn't do it with me if he never even meant it.

I guess you could say I had trust issues. Not extreme trust issues, but some.

Trusting people was hard. I trusted all of my cast mates, because they were my closest friends. And I obviously trusted Avan, more than I should've.

But all he did was take advantage of my trust.

Obviously he was just acting and teasing me. He was an amazing actor, so it wasn't exactly surprising.

Plus, he just screamed player in every way possible.

His character Beck was a player, too. I guess that was why even Jade had some trust issues as well.

Maybe I wasn't so different from my character after all.

But hey, I wasn't that mean. I could be sweet when I wanted to be.

I just really wished Avan could stop being such a flirt with me. Did I like it? Of course I did.

Which was exactly why he needed to stop.

I was never the one to display my feelings. I was a very private person. I didn't do relationships, and if I did, I'd hide them. Not because I was embarrassed, but because I didn't like fans, or people in general, seeing me vulnerable.

Maybe I shouldn't have been so hard on Avan.

Because there was absolutely no way, that we had feelings for each other.

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The next day on set was a blur, other than when Avan asked to talk to me in the dressing room privately.

And who was I to tell him no?

So as Dan called a break, I followed Avan into the dressing room and shut the door.

"What is it?" I asked, brushing my hair away from my face as I stared at him.

"Do you think of me as a player?" He questioned, a hint of fear in his voice as he shot me a look. "Do you think of me as, someone that is hard to trust? Someone that will just leave? Someone that is a bad influence towards you?"

Where was this coming from?

"Avan, what are you talking about?"

"I need an answer, Liz." He looked at me desperately, and if I knew any better, I'd say there were tears glazing his eyes. "I need to know if you trust me or not."

I didn't know why he was so scared, but I knew he was desperate for an answer.

So I replied, "I trust you, Avan."

And that thankfully, was the only answer he needed.

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-izzy