To Capture A Heart...

Chapter 7: Encino Californian Home.

12th April 2019

so, at the end of March i had two pretty exciting phone calls.. one being my american label wants me to perform at coachella after coachella contacted my label. they want me performing on the last day.. to end coachella 2019 with a BANG. and that's what i intend to do.
the second phone call was from the jacksons. yes that's right. THE JACKSONS. they asked me if i wanted to pay tribute to michael for the 10th anniversary of his death. i gladly accepted that offer, u feel HONOURED that they chose me out of everyone they could have picked. we pay tribute to michael at his neverland ranch in which he bought in the late 80s and totally converted it. it'll be broadcasted live all over the world, with his family and close friends in the audience. it will all be done in his garden of the neverland ranch, my record label and management didn't really want me to do it after all the trouble surrounding michael's name at the moment with the child abuse claims in a documentary released in the US in january and released early in match for the U.K.,
do i believe it?? no. i know you should ALWAYS believe victims. but i don't believe the two recent 'victims' i watched the documentary, did some digging as i was bored. and what i found contradicted what they said. so yes, i do believe michael jackson is innocent, my record label and management know that if i go this anniversary celebration for him a lot of people with turn on me. but i don't care. michael is one of the biggest influences in my life and i WANT to do this for him, his family and friends and of course his fans.

so those are the two exciting calls i received.

since Fizzy's death i haven't talked to louis, of course i saw him at home back in doncaster sorting some funeral stuff out, and of course i saw him at the actual funeral. we hugged and cried together but i never spoke to him. i just needed to know he was there. if you get me?? him hiding Fizzy's addiction from me is unforgivable and unforgettable. of course i love him with all my heart, he's my brother, but he should of told me. the tour meant nothing to me compared to what my sister's life meant to me.

speaking of the tour, i cancelled the last two venues with numerous nights in leeds and london. i couldn't do it. i couldn't perform. i've barely been in social media or my phone at all since Fizzy's death. i've been at home writing songs and raps to keep me sane.

right now, i'm in america rehearsing for coachella and for michael's tenth year anniversary. it's taking my mind off of fizzy a little, which is good. because i felt myself become severely depressed.
harry is up in america too, but not with me, he's writing for his album in new york while i'm in california.

18th April 2019

rehearsing has been SO HARD on my body but i've never felt better, i feel so happy and healthy. it's great.

i bought a home in california, and bought a load of stuff for it at the end of march. i kind of fell in LOVE with it when i was searching for a home, i paid $11, 995, 000 for it. there was another house i liked for 100 million dollars but i just didn't need a house that size.
the one i bought is a lot smaller but just as beautiful.
it's up in Encino, California.. where i've ALWAYS wanted a home in america.