Trans!Bakugou AU

Chapter 15: It Hurts

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Bakugou's POV:

I rushed out to the dorms. I recently just got a text from Ei, so that's why I was running to the dorms. Once I got there, I ran up the stairs into Eijirou's room.

He looked awful. Black roots were starting to show, his eyes had been blood shot with awful bags under his red eyes. The blankets were sprawled all over as he was in shorts with no shirt and sitting at his desk, chewing on a tip of a pencil.

I probably looked as bad. But it didn't matter, I just needed Eijirou. I needed him to stay with me.

"Ei."

"Bakugou," he started which caused my heart to ach. He never addressed me by my surname, he called me by Katsuki. "I'm breaking up with you."

I let out a gasp. "No, Ei, please don't do this," I begged, walking towards him as tears fell from my tear line. "I need you. I can't loose you, your my only hope. My only thing that's keeping me together!"

Eijirou let out a sigh, caressing my cheek. "I'm sorry Bakubro. I don't think we were meant to be right now. I love you," he slowly said leaning in to give me a kiss. I kissed him back but he only pulled back right away. "Lets remain as friends right now."

~

I sat through the rest of the day thinking of Kirishima. His perfect pink lips, his wonderful spikey hair, those beautiful red eyes and sharp teeth. Everything about him is perfect. Unlike me, I'm ugly. I'm a ugly bastard that is struggling with life.

Suddenly, a thought came to mind. Am I still getting my top surgery?

I began panicking without remembering I was in class. My breath became ragged, tears brimmed my eyes, mouth felt sticky, stomach churning, and heart beating faster than it's usual.

"Fuck," I muttered under my breath more times than I should.

"Kacchan you okay?"

I got up quickly, going to Izuku and hugging him. Everyone in the room gasped - so did Izuku - and I pulled Izuku to the floor. Quiet sobs overwhelmed me, making me hug Izuku tighter. Finally, sobbing into his shoulder, he hugged me back.

"I'm sorry Izu," I whispered. "I'm so sorry for everything. I'm sorry for hurting you, I'm so sorry. Everything I did, I regret it all."

And if it couldn't get any better, he hugged me tighter and began sobbing. "Ka-Kacchan," he sobbed out. His eyes filled with tears as they fell in big thick lines down his cheek. If it were possible, his tears would be shooting out of his eyes into the sky.

We sat there, sobbing into each other's shirt. Soon we pulled apart, our eyes puffy and we all took a look around the class. I cracked a small weak smile which made everyone gasp again.

Sneaking a glance to Ashido, she smiles and shakes her head proudly. Her smile is wide and there's tears in her eyes.

~

Again, I was sat in my room. Sobbing my eyes out because of my breakup. My eyes were sore, had a headache, and my stomach hurt.

Apparently, I had been crying in here for almost two hours. Until I heard a voice I recognize to much.

"Get out of here!"

I stood up abruptly and rushed to the door, putting my ear to the door so I can hear better.

"I don't want to get back with you Kaminari. It's over. I'm sorry. We are done."

"But Kiri," a certain blonde whined. "I was drunk, he forced me too. He took control of me until I broke out of his trance earlier today."

"Who's he?"

"He doesn't matter anymore. I'm sorry, I tried to fight him off but he was too strong."

Shinsou.

"Shinsou?"

"Yes! He's from general studies! He's too strong! And Bakugou... he's cutting. Why is he cutting?"

"It doesn't matter why he's cutting. I've already talked with him. Kaminari... I don't think I can forgive you, no matter how much you try..."

Kaminari starting sobbing. "Kiri, you were everything. My everything. I'm so sorry about what happened."

And with that, there was a slam and Kaminari's sobs became quieter as he walked off. Letting out a shakey breath, I sat down on my bed. This day was all over the place. It sucked honestly.

Grabbing my blade, I looked at it before placing it on to my skin. The coldness hitting me before sliding it across my wrist. I hissed in pain, screwing my eyes shut tightly. Although my eyes were closed, tears brimmed my eyes.

I let out a sigh, watching the blood drip down my wrist onto the floor. Finally, I grabbed tissue and wiped at the blood. Seeing as my wrist was a bit stained, due to it not being under warm water to get rid of the stain. Oh well... I thought.

I grabbed my ace bandages and wrapped it around my wrist. The brown bandages overlapping each other.

My head shot at the sound of a quiet whimper along with a hiss of pain and a small scream. It was coming from the side where Kirishima is.

Not caring who would see me, I rushed out and to Kiri's door. I knocked on it as I heard a small sob. Open the door please.

"Go away," he slightly yelled through the door. "Leave me alone..."

I felt a stab to the heart as he said those few words. "Kiri, it's me, Bakugou," I whispered, loud enough for him to hear. "Let me in, I'm worried."

"Go away!" He yelled louder, before I heard a gasp. Looking to my side, my jaw dropped.

Cliffhanger?? Hehe. How was this chapter, I hope it wasn't too short for yous. I'll try to make future chapters longer. Also, this book is nearing to its end!! About probably at least five chapters left then it's done! So sad :(

I can't believe I have been working on this ever since March 2020. Seven months I have been writing it now. Overall hope you enjoyed and hopefully you have been through all my cringy writings back then to now. Until then, peace!

Noah.xx