My rogue|✔

my rogue- first day being a rogue

*edited 2-05-2023*
{1800+ words}

The next morning when I woke up in the early day of light, a ray of the morningsun reached my eye. When I saw the landscape more clearly, the grass wich was first green turned in to a white colored grass made by snow. Due to the cold, the light of the sun felt very welcomed and warm. The courage of meeting a new adventure, was ruffling through my chest. When I fully opened my eyes to see the porait, I got for atleast a second a huge headache. My eyesight became more blurry and a loud sound rilled through my ears.

/edited👆2 june 2023/

I have had this kind of headace gotten due ny parnalized years. due my control over this sickness over the years, it went fastly back to normal.
It was my odd sickness, wich I never knew the name of or no any further information. Ever since the alpha had found it out, he told everyone about it in the pack, I had gotten abused and have been bullied because of that. The night had been very cold, normally I would have atleast a little room and having fire companing me. To keep me warm through the thick frosty winter. During this night, in the open cold cloud of the night. My wolf form kept me warm through the tick fur of the body. Since it was early in the morning, I had begin to think about food. When those thoughts came up my stomach growled, saying it had lots of hunger.
So I rolled and streched my body out, to go out for a run for finding food.

I ran and ran for hours, the forest had a beautiful soul, you could tell this forest was very old, when you ran through it. the oldness weren't to tell of its age. But you could see, this forest could tell stories and stories. I had heard many wolfs used to battle in these forests, because of the lack of food. Sometimes you could see a story out of the three nearby by an unforgetable battlefield. You could see where it had been happened because of the claw marks upon those trees. Between the runs I made I was also looking for food, but I didn't found anything at all. No deer or any other spectucalair delicious meal was any near by. I had guessed that
they've all ready left to the south. To the warmth side of the planet.
I didn't know so much about the big wild nature, I didn't know the right places to search for food. After a long time of searching, I finnaly had found a prescious meal. It was a young lost swine, it looked very deliciously and very tender. The swine had probably lost its mother. I tought this was a chance that I could only take this one time, during this cold winter. I knew in myself I must not mess this chance up. Like I did as the usual. I wasn't trained to be a hunter, nor to be the prey it self. My wolf mostly took over as in situations like this. My mom was once a very good natural hunter. Untill she became paralized and had to step down from her rank. My mothers name was Zari, many tales where told about her good and bad, but there had been no day that had been told the same story about her. It changed everday, untill the day that everyone had concluded that we where a family out of born monsters.

When I let my wolfs mind take control over me. I had no longer a voice over her. We were seperated, but the same individual. My wolf had been named lily, she is a natural hunter, like her mothers wolf, Esmeralda was. But the thing about her was, that she was less skilled and had been more afraid of her own part of nature. She was more lonely than the rest of her pack who came back everyday more strongerly. Though we might have been kicked out early of the trainings court lessons, she watched them training from a faraway sight. By the lessons she had picked up, She slowly sneaked around by the young prey who was eating uncouncisly.  The young swine didnt react at all, and when she saw her chance to come closer and closer and she grabbed the very young swine without any hesistation.
My human exstings felt a bit guilty for the young swine, but I had no voice at the time after all.

The young swine kicked and screamed for it's mother. Lily bited the pray fastly to death, so they young swine wouldn't feel any pain nor could escape from our hands.. when she took a big bite out of to young swine, she found it tastedly delicious. The young swine was very tender and soft. It could have been served at a palace. It was that good of a quality for Lily.
I hadn't tasted a swine for around 10 years. Only once at christmas dinner with the pack when I was younger. After the old gramps of the pack named nicolas had died, the packs new leader forbidded any celebrations to give again. There also was another new rule invented. Instead of giving the food to the poorer and weaklings, they only gave food out to the richer and strongest amongst them. Which let me and my family to forget about  delicious parts of meat any soon. Only if we had luck, we got some left over meats from  squeer animals as the rabbit or squerrels.