Pretty Genius ; reid x grey

24: happiness

Spencer thought he had felt pain before, but then he held Lexie's hand through labor. Every 5 minutes, she would squeeze so hard his hand would curl up. But, he just kept encouraging her, after all, that was his kid she was pushing out.

"You're doing great, Lex," he said during a contraction.

"Stop talking!", Lexie yelled at him, he didn't mind.

Lexie's labor had been going on for almost twelve hours, it was around 7 am and she had not progressed in five hours. So she was very irritable and tired. Especially to the doctors, then though she was one.

"Doctor Lane, I swear to god if you tell me I'm still only four centimeters, I going to kill you."

"Sorry doctor Grey, but you're still only four." The woman said regrettably.

"Ugh! I hate this!" Lexie grumbled, falling back onto the pillows.

Lexie had never been this frustrated at herself. She just wanted to get it all over with and hold her daughter in her arms, be a happy family with Spencer. Twelve hours and she wasn't even halfway there, she couldn't believe it was taking her this long.

All she wanted was this family, but once that baby gets here her whole life changes. She goes from being Lexie Grey, Nerousurgon to Lexie Grey, mother, wife, then neurosurgeon. She would be seen differently at work, mothers aren't held up to par the way they should be. In such a high position, a child could be seen as a downer. Having a child when you're at the top of your career isn't exactly what Lexie planned, she knows deep in her heart that she wants all this, but right now it is hard to remember the happy result of a baby.

She thinks of all the times she has said she didn't want kids and thinks of the moment she found out she was pregnant. Never in her adult life did she say she wanted kids, she never even had the thought slip her mind once she got to medical school. Nevermind once she became an intern and into residency. Besides when Mark had Sofia, she didn't want to raise her, she loved Zola and Sofia but kids weren't her thing.

Until she saw that tiny pink plus sign show up on a plastic stick, then another positive when she saw her daughter on a screen for the first time. She felt the walls around her world crash down, but she also felt a happiness she hadn't ever felt. She was going to have a baby with Spencer Reid, her soulmate that she really and truly loved. Something about a family suddenly warmed her heart to the fullest.

Then she remembers what Jackson said all those nights ago in Maryland. Asking her why she is happy to have a baby with Spencer but wouldn't have one with Mark. She let the whole thing get to her head all too often. She was head over heels in love with Mark, but the whole family thing just wasn't what she wanted, she was just a resident too. She assumes the fact that the pregnancy was an accident helps with her happiness, she definitely wasn't trying to get pregnant at this time, but she doesn't have any regrets.

Except for maybe not getting an epidural sooner.

"You can do this," Spencer said, holding her hand and wiping her hair off her face as she screams.

"Spencer shut up." She spat out at him, "Sorry, this is just the worst thing I have ever done."

"It is okay love," Spencer spoke softly.

At that, Lexie started to cry. More then she had been all day.

"You-you don't deserve this, you're just t-trying to help." She wailed

"Lexie, stop I couldn't imagine what you are going through right now, throw all the mean comments at me you want." He said gently, his thumb slowly rubbing her cheek.