Sobriety

Xanax[II]

    I wake up and see that Isaiah has already left to go get dressed. I get out of the bed and shower I let the hot water run over my tired body and I dry my self off and put on a dark blue tee shirt , jeans and some vans . I let down my hair and grab my phone. I make my bed and head to the kitchen and eat an apple . I see Matt and Willow cuddled up in her room I write them a note saying that isaiah took me to my therapist. I hear the doorbell so I go get it nd I see Isaiah he says " you ready?" I say " yeah ... I grab my jacket and we get in the car" He says " have you ate ??" I say " I had a apple" He said " ohh. okay " He drives to the office and i walk in " Isaiah you can just leave and come back" He says " nahh.. its good go talk " I go in and sit down in the chair he says " hi ms.Tahlia ... how are you " I sit down "really ... i had a panic attack last.night " He says "what brought this on ?" I say "my ...mom called talking about how i should be happy and married not high and alone " He says "are you still smoking ?" I say "yeah ..." he writes something down he says "does it calm you down ?" I say "yeah its only occasionally though " He looks at me "okay .. any new friends or anything ?" We talk about me meeting isaiah and everything else and about an hour later. I walk out. Isaiah is half sleep he yawns "yall finished ?" I say "yeah he just told me to slack up on my trees " Isaiah laughs "cool ...wanna go chill at my friends place ?"I say "sure "

  

  We go out to his car and we get in and he drives out to this awesome house. I say "this place is amazing " He says "i know right " We laugh.and get out He goes to the front door and knocks. I stand there and suddenly this guy comes to the door .. hes attractive very ... tall bright complexion nice hair. We walk in and Isaiah says "this is my friend Tahlia , Tahlia this is my long time friend Jermaine." I smile "nice to meet you " He smiles "you too " Isaiah says "i gotta go to the bathroom sooo you two talk .." He walks off and Jermaine says "so tell me about you?" I say "im a student at Howard .. im a songwriter and a singer " He smiles " cool what you studying ?" I say " major in writing , minor in music history & sociology " He says "cool..." I say "how about you ?" He says "oh i graduated college last year " I say "lucky " he laughs "i guess ... but im into music too " I smile "cool " He smiles "yeah we could work on something together "I laugh "you haven't even heard me sing yet " He says " I was just making up something so we could hang out " I smile " thats cute " He smiles " but still i do wanna hear you sing " I smile "well if you give me your number I can send you a song " He says "ok -smiles- " We trade numbers and Isaiah comes back in the room . He says " soo whats up J. says " nothing really i just wanted you to hear this beat...I made it but i couldn't write anything to it " He says "okay.."J. We walk to his home studio and walk in. I say "this is amazing " He smiles "thanks" i sit on a stool and  plays the beat and its so psychedelic like i could used it. I smile and J. says "you like it ?" I say "yeah " Isaiah says "its good but i dont know if i could write to it " I say "it would be easy... " They look at me and I hum and start thinking of some words.. He laughs "you want it ?" I say " sure.." He says " you can start working if you want " I say " sure .. do you have a composition book ? He says "yeah look in that box its alot in there" I grab one out and a pencil ... J says " you need anything just let us know we'll let you write " I say "okay " Him and Isaiah walk out and I play the music over and over ..

--About 4 hours later --

I walk out of the room and see Jermaine .and Isaiah both sleep. I decide not to wake them ...wow Jermaine looks so cute sleeping... I stare at him and hear Isaiah clear his throat . I say "ohh hey i finished part of the song " He smirks "were you staring at him ?" I say "maybe "He laughs causing Jermaine to wake up .. Jermaine says "whats funny " Isaiah laughs " she was watching -" I cut him off by saying " I want you guys to hear my song so far " Isaiah smirks and they get up and follow me .. I turn it on and go into the booth and sing with the music "

Gun fighting
Fatality, boy
Hell fire, boy
I stay for eternity

For you, for you
For, for you I stay
For you, for you
For, for you I