If tomorrow starts without you

Reality is a dream

[Flashback.]

June 30th, 2015.

Most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or heard but instead must be felt with the heart. Life without love is like a tree without blossoms or fruit. The best things in life are each other. It's better to have been loved and lost than never to have been loved at all. Tendou was alone, sitting on a bench during a party held by his classmates. The young man had a drink in hand, observing the surrounding area while hoping that his best friend would show up soon. Nearby, teenagers were heard playing beer pong to his left, and to the right, a few girls were playing suck and blow. Tendou sighed, imagining Wakatoshi. After graduation, the boys had the urge to throw a gathering to take advantage of the moment as a chance to see each other one last time. All Tendou was doing, though, was eating chocolate filled with rum and popped 200mg of an ecstasy pill. These two mixed well together as he put a piece of chocolate in his glass, then picked it up a couple of seconds later and sucked on it. As he stood up, everything went blurry. Disoriented, he brought his hands to his eyes as he rubbed them to regain his vision. Nothing else could be done as he was tipsy. Tendou started to move, losing his balance from time to time. Weakly, he held his glass that was slipping out, as it hung on between his right index and middle fingers. One small step seemed too heavy for the young man as he passed the threshold and let his weight push open the door. His eyes faced the ground as he slowly raised his head and noticed the pool. The beautiful shining water seemed to be enticing enough for a quick dip, so he marched over to it. The glass he held fell out of his hand, but that didn't bother him too much. As Tendou drunkenly strolled to the pool, people stared at him, wondering what he was doing. Meanwhile, Ushijima had just arrived. Semi stepped up to greet him and offered a glass of wine. He graciously refused, as he doesn't drink alcohol. Suddenly, in the corner of his eyes, he saw Tendou balancing himself at the edge of the pool. It took him a second to rush towards the swimming pool, in an attempt to try and catch his close friend before he could slip. As Ushijima's arms grabbed onto the frail man, they both fell into the water. Underwater, Tendou gradually opened his eyes. The moment he saw the man, he smiled. They hugged each other as they stared into each other's eyes. As they were floating, Ushijima Tendou that he should go inside to dry up.

Once inside, he realised that Tendou was under the influence of MDMA. As Tendou entered the room after he changed, Ushijima's face had an astonished expression as he noticed his wet, mid-long hair. Tendou's weak smile made him want to hug him. He approached his friend, but the latter pushed him onto the bed. Smirking, Tendou climbed on top and took out some sparkling green makeup pencil that he stole from the bathroom. Ushijima was confused, but he put his hands on Tendou's back, bringing his body closer. Tendou uncorked the pencil and began drawing underneath Ushijima's eyes. The pencil lead caressed his cheeks. Despite Tendou's condition, his hands handled moving the pencil lead smoothly, and it felt satisfying to the touch. This nearly made Ushijima fall asleep. "You look amazing..." As the buff man heard his friend's words, he chuckled softly. Without letting Tendou question his giggling, he put his hands on his companion's head. He slowly pushed himself towards each other so their foreheads could connect. Smiling at Tendou, Ushijima replied to his funny remark. "Not as pretty as you, Tendou."

This was when Tendou knew there was no pity in life. The sad part is, he knew he could never be with his bestfriend. Depressed, he started to cry, burying his face into Ushijima's chest. Both tightly embraced each other, as Tendou kept sobbing louder, shedding tears onto the tall man's torso. It was hard to admit for the shy man that he loved Ushijima more than he loved himself. That he hated everything about himself, but he fell so hard for his best friend. Unfortunately, Ushijima came from a cruel household that ruined his happiness most of the time. He felt alone. The truth is, you are never alone. Happiness is a choice, you create your own. Because there are good things that can happen, if we focus on those moments that depression is trying to take away from us, we will find happiness.