Striving for Skinny

Entry 2

Apologies for not updating, been rather busy ^=^ but enjoy, or don't. I don't mind.

09/01/2015

Friday.

I think I understand what robots would feel like, if they felt anything that is. Stuck. Controlled. Trapped. Depressed. I live most of my days trying to please others, but I can't, and I'm afraid I won't. I'm never good enough. Freedom is an illusion. We can never be truly free. Morals, laws and our guilty conscience will always hold us back. We all live controlled lives, and the worst thing about it , is that we accept it and believe we are free.

Breakfast:

2 crackers 70cals

Low cal cheese 30cals

Total: 100cals

I really do hate my life. My family. My nonexistent friend group. Ha. When I left school, they didn't care. Not one bit. No texts asking how I am. Nothing. Like I never even existed in their life. Friends are stupid anyway. You 'get to know' a complete stranger and decide if you like then enough to see them again. By get to know, I mean they get to say as little or as much truth or bull as they like. Which means you could grow up never really knowing the other. Strange isn't it.

Lunch:

Air 0cals

Water 0cals

Total: 0cals

Do you know what I do all day? I get up at 11am, take pills, attempt to eat breakfast, usually fail. Exercise and skip lunch. Do nothing. Eat dinner, usually purge. Do nothing until 5am. Go to sleep. Every day. I have nothing to do. Nothing. Nothing interests me. Nothing is appealing. Nothing gives me enjoyment. I'm never happy anymore, and that's sad..

Dinner:

Tomato soup 40cals

Asparagus 15cals

Low cal cheese 50cals

Apple crisps 66cals

Total: 171cals

Total for today: 271cals