she was different.
her blue eyes. her dimpled cheeks. her green and black hair. her tattoos, her nose piercing that glistened in the light. she didn't smile often, but when she did, it was mostly around me. she protected me, she understood me, she l...
prepare yourselves. i got mad writing this shit too.
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k a y l a n i
it was time for me to open up about my story.
i've been thinking long and hard about it. billie almost got herself into trouble for beating the fuck out of nathaniel and that was for me. so the least i can do, was finally open up and possibly get nathaniel to go to trial and i pray and hope he's found guilty.
i'm going to talk to my family about it. our family is basically in the open eye because of my moms and i don't want the media to say anything that'll ruin their reputation, because charging somebody for sexual assault is very risky. some people will believe you and others won't. but i know what nathaniel did, my family knows what he did and i think that's all i needed.
"kaykayyyy!" i heard a voice say and when i looked at the door, kyree walked into my room and he closed it after him.
"hey," i smiled at him and he came and pulled me into a hug. "juli's here with you too?"
"yeah. so is jayden. kylie kept blowing up my phone, because they haven't seen each other for a while. jayden's been busy with work, she's been busy with work and they're both not in school, so.." he responded and i nodded. "wassup? you look like you've been thinking a lot,"
"i have," i breathed out.
"talk to me. we've never really had a one on one, so c'mon i'm all ears," he said to me as he took a seat on my vanity chair and i smiled.
i closed my phone and ran my fingers through my hair. i trusted kyree of course and i just wanted his whole opinion on this before i tell the rest. he didn't even know about what nathaniel did to me, and i think he deserves to know, because of course he's going to be confused on the whole court thing
"on my 16th birthday last summer, i was sexually assaulted by nathaniel," i told him.
"the dude billie beat the fuck out of?" he asked me and i nodded. "oh shit, if i knew, i would've sneaked in the school and beat the shit outta him too, what the fuck. but my fault, continue,"
"the day it happened, i rushed home, before anything else happened," i continued. "i only had my pajamas on with my phone. i ran from his house to my house in the dark. and thank god he didn't get in his car and follow right after me, because i don't know what i would've done," every time i talk about this story, it just makes me sick. "i told my moms and kylie. i was crying, and that was the first time i had a panic attack. i didn't want to go to the police, i wasn't ready. i also told juliana, because she's family too. they were the only ones that knew," he got off the chair and came to sit in front of me and gave me a small smile to continue. "whenever like a stranger came close to me or did the most small gesture, i would get a panic attack. when billie and i first met, we played hide and go seek. she wanted to kiss me and i was staring at her lips when we were in the closet together after she found me, and she got closer and i started having a panic attack,"
