I wake up with an awful migrain. Ow! I scream . My eyes finally open. And the first person I see is my godmommy. Whoa! I say to her. You feel drunk dont you? Yeah totally I reply. Well kid your tough. Just like ya godmama. Then I turn my head and see Theresa sleep in a chair, and looked like she'd been crying for hours. Stacey shaking asleep in her chair . And my aunt ( their mom) standing behing my godmommy. Hey Auntie Trina. I exclaim. Hey cutie she says and kisses my forehead. Your mom, baby I'm so sorry I had to tell you this. But baby she died. What! I'm in tears now. Wheres Jamie? I ask. He's with his dad he's going to live with him from now on. So you won't have to bear the responsibility for him alone. Okay at this point I'm scared to hear about Josh. Ma where's Josh? I ask her. Baby she starts. Ma don't tell me he's dead. Baby they did all they could he's not dead but he is in a coma. Oh my gosh. I don't need all this . My audition is in two days. I can't , I'm just going to cancel it. Baby girl , I hear Stacey say. You giving up on your dream, is not going to make this any better. And your mother would not want you too. She'd want you to make it, or atleast show them what you've got. Stacey normally gives these types of speeches. But sometimes they are seriously helpful.But then Stacey stared at me. I guess she realized I was in a zone. But instead of threatining to cut me like usual she cut me a break. Ma I say. Yes my godchild. Come here. She leans in. What happened to the baby I asked. Baby you are my baby. In my mind I'm guessing she lost it. But I don't think she was ready for one anyway. She wouldv'e done a hell of a job! Dont get me wrong, but I dont thinnk in her state, at 24 she really isn't ready, cause living paycheck to paycheck isn't good for her physically and mentally. Yeah ma I always will be. I kiss her forehead and she squeezes me. I'm tired im going to sleep. Everyone is awake accept for Theresa which is weird. But they all kiss me goodnight. And I slowly drift off into sleep.
