My audition for the Alvin Ailey Dance Company was over a week ago. Still no word, I come home and race to the mail box every day. Everyday for the last week, the same thing. Nothing, Nada, Zip, Zilch, Zero. Godmommy says the longer they take tells you that they have a hard decision to make . It doesnt make sense to me now, but in time like every other weird thing she says to me it'll make sense. I woke up this morning with something next to me. I turn and I see Josh .Josh! I exclaim. What the hell baby! They said you probably wouldnt pull through. I came by last night , but your godmother had said you were already sleep.... I cut him off kissing him. I release in tears now. I look into his eyes and I say I love you. He looks at me and slowly rubs my shoulder where a bruise had was. He said can I kiss it and make it better? It still hurts babe but go ahead just be gentle. I feel his soft, gentle, pink lips touch my silky skin. I slightly moan. Are you ok? he asks. Im fine babe its just been a while. He says well lets change that shall we ? I smile push him back down onto the bed. he rolls me over. He's now on top. I love you he says. I love you to babe I say. He unbuttons my plaid shirt and kisses my chest. I roll him over now and take of his white t-shirt. I see the scar from the surgory . Are you ok babe? He asks. Yeah I say I just have to make my peace with it. I kiss the scar and he lifts my chin up and kisses me. Then he blurts out Marry Me!. I pause for a moment and try and comprehend what he had just said. What I shout. Marry me! Tess we've been through so much why not get married? Babe I love you honestly I do, but getting married now it seems a little fast. We just started dating in the summer. Babe love has no amount of time, and he looks at me with those big brown eyes. I say I don't think thats a good idea right now. Well then Tessa I love you but if we're not getting married I can't do this . Do what I ask him. We can't be together if we're not married. Babe we've been fine for 10 months now. What are you doing this for? I am now in tears, he kisses me like never before and walks out my room . I run down the stairs after him , screaming baby dont leave me I need you. I grab his shirt he throws sme off. Im now in the hallways of the door on my knees crying. My godmother comes running out the kitchen and holds me. And says baby if he left that means he was never really here. She kisses my forehead and rocks me back and forth. Its going to be ok she says I promise you baby I promise.
