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25. Finding Finn Pt. 2

Finn's POV

I sit on the edge of the cliff.
I stare at the light blue ocean and feel nothing.

I was numb, I had been crying.

Finn, man up and do it already, the voice in my head tells me.

I will but not yet, I tell the voice.

I look at the clear light sky.
It's breathtakingly beautiful.

Perfect place to take my life away from this world.

I stand up on the edge. I'm about to jump when I hear,

"Finn! Don't you dare fucking jump!"

It's Beauty. She can't stop me at this point.

It would be pointless to try.

"Not now Beauty!" I yell at her, in a annoyed tone.

"Finn!"

I don't look at her.

"Finn!"

Nothing.

"Finn turn around!"

I'm numb.

"Turn around, god damnit!"

I can't, I think to myself.

"Finn."

Is she crying?

"F-Finn, please turn around."

Why is she pleading?

"I can't live without you. Please, turn a-around."

My Beauty.

I turn around and stare at the most beautiful girl in the world.

But I can't live like this anymore.

"Beauty, I have to jump." I tell her sternly hiding my true feelings.

"No you don't Finn! There is no reason to do that."

"Yes there is!"

I'm starting to get mad.

"Like what?!"

"Like how my "friends" hate me, my ex-girlfriend hates me, my parents hate me, people at school hate me. Everybody fucking hates me! Why would I want to live in a world that hates me?! Tell me one good fricking reason, Evangelina!"

She stays silent for awhile.

I turn back around, getting ready to jump.

It's a whisper I will never forget that changed my mind forever.

"I don't hate you, Finn. That's my reason. I love you too much to see you jump off that cliff."

I turn back around and stare at her with wide eyes.

She looks as stocked as me.

"I-I-I love you, Finn. I really, really love you."

I stare at her, for what feels like the longest time.

My heart starts to swell.

"Why would you love me?"

She blushes and thinks about it.

"Love; A strong feeling of affection and concern toward another person."

"What does-"

"Ever since I started writing letters to you, all my worries went to you. I worried about you in the night, the morning, the beginning of class, the middle of class, and the end of class. I worried about you when I walked home from school, and everywhere I went. I worried about you everyday Finn. I even worried about if you had a healthy breakfast, or if you were getting good grades."

"I don't-"

"My affection towards you grew and grew and grew. If you hurt, I hurt. If you were sad or depressed, I was too.
If you were happy one day and bubbly the next, I was also."

"Even so-"

"I grew a fondness of you Finn. I want you in my life and on my mind. I want you in my bed, to hold me and tell me things are going to be alright. I want you to hold my hand and squeeze it tight. I also want to be there for you when things get ruff or hard to deal with. I want to be the one to hold you and whisper sweet things into your ear. I want to wipe your tears away, if you have any. I want those green eyes of yours to look at me while I sleep in your arms. Finn, I want everything with you. You have become my everything without even trying."

"Evangelina, your crying." I whisper to her.

She nods.

I walk over to her and hug her tight.

She weeps in my arms and says "Finn, don't kill yourself. I-I need you."

I look down at her and start to wipe away her tears. I take her face into the palms of my hands.

"Beauty."

She cries harder. She thinks I'm going to tell her goodbye.

"I love you so much, you don't even know."

And then, I kiss her.