Not the only one. (Completed)

Chapter Nine.

Dean's POV:

"I'm worried about Sami. Aren't you? He's been ignoring us for the past month. Do you think he's this mad? Mostly at you, but what about me? Why would he ignore me? I haven't done anything." I covered my face listening to AJ ramble on and on about Sami. It's been like this since the moment that all went down and it's exhausting. "I swear if you talk about Sami one more time, my head is gonna explode. Seriously April, we just had sex and the first thing that comes to your mind is Sami? God." I rolled off of her then sat up with my face still covered by my hands. "I'm sorry it's just, what if he's hurt? He could be hurt." "April-" "I know I wasn't around when he went through his depression but I've read that it could come back and with a case as extreme as his was, it's more likely to happen."

"You know what? Let's talk about what this really is April." I stood up dropping my hands to my sides then started reaching for my boxers at the end of the bed. She sat up and frowned, "What do you mean, Dean?" I shook my head, "We're not Dean and AJ right now okay? We're just Jon and April." She nodded, "Well Jon, can you please come back to bed with me?" She pretended to pout. Usually, that would work but no, not this time. We need to talk about this. I shook my head, "No. We need to talk about the giant elephant in the room because it's fucking embarrassing. You're in love with Sami."

She stared at me and shook her head, "You have it all wrong. I'm not in love with Sami, I'm in love with you. Why would I be with you if I'm in love with him? I'm fucked up but I'm not that fucked up. Baby, just calm down." "Calm down!? I'm not an idiot, April. I can see it. I see the way you look at him, the way you touch him...I know because you use to touch me that way and I don't like the fact that I get nervous every time Sami, you, and I are together somewhere. You think I'm blind? You two have something and I can't explain it. If it weren't a damn shame, I'd ship you guys myself." "You'd ship us?" "It's a social media thing." "You don't have social media of any kind." "I'm getting one look, you're missing the point. If you have feelings for him, you need to say it!"

April got up and started putting her clothes on facing away from me. I just watched her and for awhile, I thought she just wouldn't say anything at all. I started to say something else since her silence was pissing me off but she turned around and I went speechless. Not in that good way that usually happens when she's around but in the sad way because when she turned around, I saw tears in her eyes. I felt like the biggest jerk in the world for yelling but what was I suppose to do? I'm sick of this. "Do you think I want to feel this way about him? Yeah once again AJ being the big slut that she is. Can't be happy with just one guy, must have them all. Just got a tear down a lifelong friendship between two guys who claim each other as brothers. I already feel awful."

"Forget it babe come-" "We can't forget this Jonathan! I'm hurting you! I'm hurting you and Sami and I don't know how to stop this! I don't want to break you two apart. I don't wanna be the woman who got in between the Switchblades." "You can't be. That woman already exists," I whispered. She looked at me, "Chrissy?" I nodded, "Yes. We've been split apart before and we've come back together ten times stronger than before. He's always gonna be my little brother. We're Switchblades until we die. Sami knows that. Look if you wanna be with Sami then, I guess I understand. I've been alone all my life and I'm use to people leaving so."

"Jon-" "I get it. Sami is funny, easy to get along with, you're from Jersey and he's lived in Jersey, you guys are always laughing together. You guys both are into comics and-" AJ ran over and shoved me backwards into the wall pretty hard. I stopped and looked at her, "What was that for?" "You don't know when to zip it." She grabbed my face and kissed me passionately. I was confused but I kissed her back and we made out for a good 15 minutes until finally, I pulled away out of breath. She stared into my eyes as I whispered, "Well that came out of nowhere."

"Jon, I love you." "April-" "I'm serious. I love you. And I always will." I looked back at her and I could tell that she wasn't lying. I slowly whispered, "But I'm not the only one." AJ stepped back but I continued, "You don't know what's it like to see you with him...to know that if I fuck this up, you're likely to go with my best friend. I don't like the way he looks at you and I don't like the way you look at him. The looks you give each other is implanted into my skull and it drives me even crazier than I am and that is why I have to do this." I pulled my tank that I usually wrestle in on over my head and grabbed my leather jacket. I put on some of my boots, grabbed my wallet, then my keys. "No baby don't-" "I'm sorry."

I walked toward the bedroom door then the very front door as she quickly followed me. She tried talking to me, "No! Please don't go! I'll figure this out I swear! You can't just leave! Jon! Wait a second!" I opened the front door but she slammed it shut and stepped in front of me. She hugged me tight begging and sobbing, "No, no. Please. Please don't go. I'm not in love with Sami. I didn't lie about that. Come on let's just go to bed." I hugged her back turning her around then let go opening the door.

"Jon, you can't go. Don't leave me. Don't leave me like the rest. You know what it's like to be left, don't be like the rest of the guys I've dated. You're suppose to be different! You-" She spoke really fast as the ocean drained from her eyes. It hurt seeing her this way because I do understand the pain she's in. But she needs to figure out who's she loving before I jump any further into our relationship. "I'm sorry April," Is all I said to her.

I quickly walked away not realizing that tears streamed down my own cheeks.