Tips on how to be mataray like me

Facts (About the author's life problems)

Part 3

"When one leaves. Another one returns." -quote created by me, myself no helps. Deep from my heart and from the walls of my... If you like reading Fifty Shades you would know what I am talking about. :D

So this chapter is not all about TIPS. This chapter is mainly about my thought's. More on realizations. So I've got this little problem. Not really little but so big and painful that I couldn't stand it. Every time I do nothing, I suddenly burst out crying for no good reason. But I do know that THEY are my reasons. 

FACT #1

When a person hates you and they post something about backstabbing wich includes YOU. Doesn't that include them also? I mean... Kung ikaw nangbabackstab kasama ang bago mong friends pano pa kaya SILA na dati mong kaibigan na ikaw lang ang laman ng paguusap. Isn't that called BACKSTABBING?! For once in my life I have never felt this shitty before. Even when my parent's left. They just hang in my mind but never leave. But THEM they WERE a part of my life. Not like my parent's weren't. But they were the only persons who I was with all day when I go to school. 

My day ends with THEM. And with one WRONG MOVE, I've lost them. I know I was the one who started all this, but all I needed was attention. Attention my parent's never gave me. All my life I have never had bestfriends who understood my bitchiness and kind of slutyness (If there's such words) But my point is...

"Always think before you move." 

Before everything is too late.

So now here I am all broken and stuff. Just reading books and spending my time Buying books Read, read, read, homework, projects, read, read, play, read, read, and finally play. I DO NOT STUDY when not needed. 

TIP (How to look like your happy, when deep inside you feel crappy)

I just wanted to take all of your boredom away so I insisted of writting about more tips. I am sorry for the "sad" craps I have written. So yeah. 

So you have a lot of problems? I can help you. Ask me anything. Although I'm really not a person who makes you feel better. But I'll do my best. :3

POKER FACE: the easiest way to hide all the sadness away.

You need to keep calm. Face it! They hate you. But of course you need to compose yourself when you feel like their looking at you. BE AN ACTRESS. It's what I'm good at! PRETENDING... Pretending that I'm happy with my life by being jolly but the truth is. ISH! Anyway... I'm not saying you need to be strong all the time. You can be weak some times. And maybe you can cry in front of them and say sorry. 

SMILE: smile. Another easy way to keep your thoughts away

Smile! All you need to do is to smile. Less stress, less worries, less pity. Less craps. The thing is! Show them that you can be happy no matter what. Show them that you can be happy without them. Easy! :3

SO, LETS COME BACK TO BEING MEAN

So this guy who I really like used me as an "entertainment" thing. He showed me he likes me and showed me A LOT! Of stuffs you wouldn't wanna know... When I ignore him he gets mad, when I tell him I have dates, when I tell him I'm busy. Everything I do that includes me not talking to him, gets him angry.

In short. Acting like a boyfriend kind of guy. So I used to like him. But one day, I suddenly fell for him. And I was like, asking myself why. And I actually told him what I felt and he laughed at my face.

He said "The bet worked." 

I was like "What?" not bursting into tears BUT feeling numb and emotionless

He was like "We had a bet. And now I have money because of you. Bye!"

Since he is my schoolmate, only older than me. I found out why he was doing sweet crappy things to me. So yeah. He was a piece of shit. And you know what I did?

I told some friends, school mates and even batchmates what he did and be careful. So now. He fell inlove with some girl and the girl talked to me. So we planned a lot of stuffs. We need to make him fall for her, even more. Then the heartbreaking starts.

So yeah it worked. And he keeps bothering me via SMS, Call, Facebook. And I'm freaking annoyed. He keeps saying hi and hello. But I just don't want to waste my time on crappy persons like him. 

So yeah. I don't know what else I should post or update about. But I'll think of some things. :3