JJ MAYBANK x Reader Fanfic

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Y/N's POV

When I woke up in JJ's arms I knew I had made a mistake; I'd crossed a barrier in our relationship and it was gonna be hard to create space between us again. It wasn't easy taking a break from him but at least there were set boundaries. Falling asleep together was not one of them.

"Do you wanna talk about this," he asked gently, when we woke up, a slight smile on his face when he looked down at me curled into his body.

"Not yet.," I muttered selfishly, not able to bring myself away from him. I felt safe again, almost happy.

But I knew it was fake. He didn't love me.

After a minute or so more, I took a deep breath and sat up on the bed, crossing my legs and facing him while he did the same.

"We're not good together, JJ," I sighed, forcing myself to look in his eyes as if that would convince him that my words were true.

"What do you mean we're not good together, we're perfect?" he asked, clearly confused and cocking his head to the side.

I looked down at my hands as I fiddled with my nails, Barry's words playing over and over again in my head like a mantra.

"Well it probably gets boring only having sex with the same person and not being able to flirt with all the tourons who think you're hot, right? I'm holding you back. Before me you were having fun and hooking up either very one and now you're just stuck with me."

"Woah, baby, where's all this coming from? First of all - not everything's about sex; our relationship is so much more than that. Second of all - our sex life is out of this world, so I don't know where you got that idea from," he told me, reaching for my hands but I made no attempt to hold his back.

I was trying to make him angry so he could break with me and move on without it hurting him, but now he was just pitying me and it was making it all worse.

I shrugged nonchalantly to show him I didn't care about him, but his eyes softened and when he held my chin gently to face him, I knew I couldn't do it anymore.

"Is this why you're pulling away from me?"

I broke down at that moment, all of my emotions that I had been blocking out since Barry's came flooding back like a huge wave, and I was overwhelmed from trying to hold back for over a month.

JJ didn't hesitate to pull me into his lap, holding my head close to his body as he peppered the side of my face with kisses. I'd missed his intimacy.

After what felt like hours and I had no tears left to cry, I pulled myself away from him and decided to confess everything.

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A/N
This chapter is a bit shorter because the next one has a long monologue and I didn't want you guys to get bored.