Fear Of Rejection (Dawson's Book 1) | COMPLETED

Chapter 4 - Nash POV

It's been a week since I found my mate and each day it gets harder and harder to avoid her. I found out her name is Melody Velvet. I knew she would have a beautiful name. She is in two of my classes and by now has worked out I'm her mate. I usually arrive late to class and leave as soon as the bell goes so she doesn't get the chance to confront me and its killing me. Every time I walk away from her my heart breaks more and more. Especially after seeing her face fall in disappointment each time.

Two days ago was a close call. I walked into the cafeteria and Hunter from her pack was harassing her and calling her names like a slut and bitch. He is the eclipse pack alpha's son. My pack and the eclipse pack both attend this school because our territory is right next to theirs. I pulled him away from her and punched him in the face then left as soon as Melody called my name.

Luckily I managed to get away before she found me. I swear to god if it wasn't for the fact that Melody belongs to that pack then I would have killed him.

The bell goes and I notice everyone is already in class. Great now I'm gonna be late. I turn around and someone knocks into me and falls over. 'It's her! It's our mate' silver says happily. Her amazing sent surrounds me and I look down at her and see she is looking at me with a beautiful blush on her cheeks. I help her up and she smiles at me. Shit, there's no escape this time. Especially with her beautiful smile directed at me. It makes me stumble a little bit

"Why have you been avoiding me? Don't bother denying it because in not stupid" Shit, busted.
"I... uh. I'm sorry"
she comes closer to me.
"Is it because I'm not good enough for you? I know people call me a slut and say I'm fat and ugly. Is that what you th-" I kiss her before she can finish her sentence. Why the fuck would she ever believe sick nasty lies. She's fucking perfect.
Oh god her lips feel so soft and good on mine. I lick her bottom lip asking for permission and she gladly accepts. Oh god she is such a good kisser.
Wait... What am I doing? This could put her at risk. I pull back and look at her slightly swollen lips.

"Apology accepted" she says smiling. She looks at me with lust and happiness.
"Fuck this is bad... very bad" if only she knew how much danger she could be in right now. She would run away and never look back.

Melody looks at me with a confused expression.

"What do you mean this is bad? Did I do something wrong?" the look of hurt on her face is breaking my heart. Now I'm gonna have to reject her so she won't be in danger. She gonna cry. I don't think I will be able to take it if she cries. It will shatter my heart.

I have to just suck it up and say it because I can't put her in danger. Watching her cry is better that watching her die.

"I... uh, I Nash Dawson of the Silvermoon pack re-reject..." I freeze
she crying. Oh god no she can't cry. She should never have to feel sad of cry ever. Her life should be filled with happiness.

"N-no I can't do this" I say wiping away her tears.

"W-what do you mean? You can't do what? " she says while more tears run down her face. I can't take this pain anymore.

"I can't reject you. Someone as beautiful and perfect of you should never cry" I say pulling her in for a hug. I lose all self-control and I kiss her like it's the last time I ever will because it probably is.

She is the first to break the kiss and before she can say anything else I run out to the car park and drive off. Crap what have I done?

I need to get away from here before my father finds out I didn't reject her. Maybe I should take a week off and give her some time to realise I'm not god enough for her so she can move on and stay safe. The image of her with another man pops into my head again and I feel furious.
'Relax. She isn't with anyone so calm the fuck down before you kill us both' where was he when that shit with Melody went down.
'I'm sorry. I'm calm' I reply and silver shuts up.

Once I get home I see my father in the other room talking to someone one the phone. I get close enough so that I can hear him but he can't see me.

"Because you know what will happen if they fully mate. I got to go before the little shit gets home." he turns around so I sneak back into the living room. What the hell is he talking about? Before I can try work out what I just heard I see my father walking towards me with a silver whip. Shit this can't be good.
"Today's lesson his for you to learn to cope with the pain of silver. Anyone can use it against you". Then before I can reply the whip rips across my chest and I howl out in pain.