Fear Of Rejection (Dawson's Book 1) | COMPLETED

Chapter 18 - Nash POV

"She's in here. She won't wake up." I say while I carry melody out of the burning building. She still has a heartbeat but she isn't breathing right. I rush her to hospital while the pack searches for my father.

I choke back the tears that are threatening to fall.
I can't lose her ....

~*~

It's been weeks and the doctors can't do anything to wake her up. If she doesn't wake up within five days then they have to pull the plug and I lose her forever. She is being fed through a tube and thankfully the babies are okay. That's the only good news. Unfortunately the bad news keeps pilling on. My father got away and no one can find him.

"Nash you have to see this. I found a way to save Melody." Erin says coming onto the room.

"Show me"

"On one condition. You have to shower, shave and change. I want you fresh as a daisy before I show you." I go to argue but it's clear she isn't going to change her mind.

"Happy. Now show me." She hands me a book opened to a page. On it is a glowing purple diamond. There are words on the page but it's in a different language. "What is this?"

"It's call a Neroculow Diamond. There are 13 left in the world all owned by a lady named Esmerelda. It has the power to heal someone no matter what the disease or illness. If you find her you can save Melody. The only problem is that Esmerelda isn't the generous type to give away such a rare and precious item."

"What do you mean?"

"That there is a reason that she has only given away one. Not everyone is prepared to pay the price, are you?"

"It's the only way to save Melody. I will pay whatever price there is."

I arrive at Esmerelda's house, or should I say mansion, two days later. I have three days to get the diamond and get home to Melody.

"Come in" a lady who I'm guessing is Esmerelda, says from the front door. I walk the rest of the way up the driveway and enter the house. "I know why you're here but tell me what you need the Neroculow Diamond for and we can work something out."

"The love of my life and my unborn sons are dying and I need the diamond to save them. No matter what the price. I can't let them die" I say. Esmerelda gives me an evil smile that has me worried.

"Do you love this woman enough to give your life for her?"

"If that what it takes. But please let me save her before you kill me"

"Who said I was going to kill you. I just wanted to know how devoted you are to her. I'll give you the Diamond. If ... you give me what I want"
The evil glint in her eyes make me feel sick.

"W-what do you want?"

"A baby" she replies calmly. As if she hasn't just dropped a major bomb on me.

"No way. You are not going any where near my sons" I yell. This lady is fucking insane.

"I don't want your sons. I want your help in making my own baby" the meaning of what she's implying sinks in and I feel like throwing up.

"What! Why the hell would you want that?" I shouted. There is no way in hell that's happening.

"Simple. The guilt would eat you alive, could ruin your relationship and I wouldn't mind having a child to leave everything to when I die."

"You are an evil woman. There is no way I would cheat on Melody or have a child with you"

"You will if you want your girlfriend to live. Question is, what will you do to save her?" This can't be happening.
No. I'm not doing it.
"Times running out. There is only one way to save her"

Shit. Fuck, fuck, fuck.

Melody I hope you forgive me someday.

"Fine. For Melody." She can never find out about this. It will crush her.

~*~

After that horrible night I was able to get the Neroculow Diamond and save Melody. But the evil bitch was right about one thing. The guilt is eating me alive. I just hope Mel never finds out.

"Well Melody it's you lucky day. The diamond worked. You and your babies are perfectly fine. Come in for a check-up in two weeks." The doctor said. Finally I can take my beautiful mate home.

I haven't been able to sleep with her since the Esmerelda incident because the guilt has become too much. I need to tell her so that I can fix this guilt but I can't risk losing her.

When she tries to be intimate with me I tell her that I don't want to hurt the babies. This guilt is killing me. I need to do something about it.

Dean and Eden decided to move here and join the pack since they want to be around me and Mel more. To make sure we are safe.

Dean is the only one that knows what I had to do to save Mel and he found someone who can suppress the guilt. We are going to visit right after I drop Mel off at home.

We arrived and a cabin a few miles from the pack house 30 minutes later. The guy who can help me with the guilt is named Damon. He is fae and can take away the guilt. The only condition is that in order to get rid of the guilt completely I have to tell melody the truth. This mixture will only minimise it until I tell her. Then the mixture will get rid of all guilt when she forgives me.

It's stupid but I guess it beats telling her and still feeling guilty. "Okay. Give me the mixture. I'm ready."

"Thanks for your help Damon" Dean says from beside me.

"No problem man."

I swallow the mixture and god it tastes horrible. But on the bright side I feel better. Now I need to get back to the love of my life.