When the dark met the light

Chapter 17

Paranoia's POV

Logic...

Where is he?

If I find him I can ask him everything...

He is smart. Or at least he's meant to be.

Patton's POV

Ooft.

Black.

A black hoodie?

Virgil?

"I'm so sorry Virgil I just walked into you." I say.
"Uhh... no I'm sorry... Do you know where Logic is, I have to ask him something." He replies.
"Oh- actually I don't I'm sorry but you can talk to me just like old times kiddo."

I guess I was at my breaking point because I just started to break down infrount of him.

Paranoia's POV

Uhhh...
What am I meant to do I've never had to help anyone through a breakdown.

Wait...

I have them all the time I should be able to help. Maybe if I help him he can tell me what happened to me.

"Okay I need you to calm down, you aren't alone I'm right infrount of you okay," I say through his sobs," so I want you to do as I say okay?"

He nods.

"Okay good, I want you to breath on for 4, hold for 7, and out for 8, do you think you can do that for me?"

He nods and begins to breath in shakely. As he does this I rub his back knowing that physical contact helps.

I know that everyone gets breakdowns and stuff but now I realise that people worry about you when you have them and they care. Even if they don't show it. 

I guess maybe someone could possibley care for me too, but why would anyone do that the only person that will show me kindness is De right...

I decide to leave Morality once he has calmed down slightley as I leave I bump into a taller figure (Yes I am aware that all of the sides should theoretically be the same height but yeah personally I think they are all different heights) 

 "Ow," I say even though it never hurt, I them hear i dissatisfied tsk.

"Logan! You're here" Morality jumps up at the sight of him even though he was literally crying like 2 seconds ago.

"Ahh, Patton you seem to have found Virgil I see." He states

"I would kindly appreciate it if you used Paranoia not Virgil." I say sourly, I can tell I wont get along  with him very well.

"Fine then Vir- I mean Paranoia." he pushes up his glasses. While motioning his hand in an upward motion. Suddenly the prince character popped up.

"What is it no..." Creativity just kinda ended up staring at me with awe. "Virgil..." His mouth was wide open at this point tears welling up in his eyes.

"What is it Princey do I have something on my face," I say almost mockingly but I have to further check just in case. Damn he really looks a mess even worse than me. I mean his eyebags are on another level. Nevermind that his hair looks awful.

"I thought I wouldn't see you again after that incident." Tears falling down his face, and I notice Logic and Morality leave.

"Well I wasn't planning on showing up to see you anyway..." I glare at him, "Ya know what youre the only one here so I might as well ask, but do you know about how I died."

"I- thats what you want to talk about- but- I-"

"YES JUST TELL ME ALREADY"

"Fine" he hand him the note that I had written after my attempt. Even though it was tear stained it was still readable. 

I'm sorry everyone, but this world is just not my place. I've tried so hard to fix this and fit in. There is nothing for me here, I'm just a waste of space. It's okay though you will see me soon. When you see me again I might not remember you but it is all for the best. The only thing I ask of you is to carry on smiling through life, even when you are down. Even when you feel like I did I want you to be better than me and carry on smiling. Because your smiles light up my world. I will be watching over you all.

Patton I wish it didn't end like this but I want you to continue smiling. I will be watching over you and protecting you like you protected me.

Logan, I will miss you and I'm sorry you won't have anyone to stop the others from being unrealistic. But I left you a present if you look in my wardrobe you will find a supply of crofters jam. I hope you enjoy it.

And finally Roman. I love you, even if you don't love me. I want you to keep smiling and stay strong. What would a prince be if he couldn't stay strong?

"Ha you think I wrote this how would I have possibly felt this way towards you of all people and I would never feel this insecure," trying to convince myself and him. I cant have possibly have had such deep connections to these light sides Janus had said otherwise and I basically owe him my life. We would he lie to me like that.

Okay guys I think I might be baack for a while but dont be expecting too many updates coz im trying to do my highers/a levels of whatever you call them. But other than that hopefully this wont be left forever I hope you enjoy this chapter.

Author-chan~