ʜɪᴍ ✔️ ⇢ Young•K

012

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012  ;  she misses you pt.2
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Warning! This Chapter describes self harming. Please do not read if your sensitive to this topic. If your in need of help please contact the suicide hotline.

( beile's pov )

Why can't I tell him that I want him back?

I hate myself.

I hate myself so much.

I'm literally a pussy.

What's the point of going to this stupid damn party anyways.

Jae:
Why aren't you at school?
Sent at 11:57pm

Me:
I decided not to go
Sent at 11:58pm

Jae:
Oh
Sent at 12:00pm

I guess Jae found out that I'm not at because we have the same lunch shift.

I've been taking my classes online.

Im not comfortable with going to school anymore.

After that scene I'm just embarrassed to go back.

I wish I never done that. Ever.

There's a lot of things that I wish that I've never done in my life.

I want to go back to that day where me and Young K got together.

I remember when he asked me out in my freshman year when he was a sophomore.

I remember our first date to.

We walked to a cliff that had only one pink flowered tree in the middle with the ocean at the edge of the cliff.

We sat on a bench, just talked upon hours and hours till it was dark outside.

That was the best date of my life.

That tree was very beautiful to.

It was a blossom tree with pretty pink flowers on sense it was spring of last year.

We were together for a year and 7 months until I ended it 10 days before our year and 8 months of being together.

You probably think that's fucked up but your right about it.

I fucked up. Big time.

The greatest fuck out of my teen years that I will never let go.

In me and Young K's old science class we had to build something for the science fair.

He was a student helper in that class.

He loved science.

Me and Young K built a time machine.

I know that time machine don't really exist but we just acted like it did.

Young K loved traveling. He always wanted to travel without a passport.

That was the best thing that we ever done together as well.

Such great memories.

Sadly all my memories was with him.

I pull out my phone on Instagram and read a post.

" Beauty is pain and there's beauty in everything "

Maybe I show give myself pain I thought.

This razor will do the job.

My soft, beautiful, and shiny skin should be rough and bumpy.