Too soon, too late (Completed)

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After I finish retouching my make-up, I swiftly got into one of the cubicle and pee. Sandali akong napaisip sa mga posibleng mangyari ngayong araw. I actually have a feeling that he's the one celebrating a birthday today. Pero hangga't hindi ko pa nakikita ay hindi ako aasa.

I have my gift, on those two years that I am away, all my gifts for him in any occassions are still with me. Nahihiya ako sa totoo lang, alam ko naman na ako ang may kasalanan.

I was too coward, sarili lang ang iniisip noong nagdaang mga taon. If I only asked for help, e'di sana hindi na umabot pa sa puntong halos hindi na kami magkakakilala.

Nang makalabas sa banyo ay kaagad akong natulos sa kinatatayuan nang may makitang pamilyar na bultong nakasandal sa pader sa gilid ng pintuan.

I swallowed a hard lump on my throat and was about to just walk passed by him but he suddenly cleared his throat.

Kahit na nahihiya ay pinili kong harapin siya kahit na hindi ako sigurado kung ginawa niya ba iyon para kuhanin ang atensiyon ko.

"Hi," I awkwardly greeted.

He slowly nodded his head and stand straightly. "Why are you here?"

Ang nanlalamig niya na boses ay halos saksakin ang nagwawalang dibdib ko ngayon.

"A friend invited me."

"Ah.." He hummed. "When did you got back?"

"Last month." I awkwardly chuckled.

"Welcome back then.."

My shoulders fell when he turned his back on me and entered the bar without looking back.

It's okay, it's my fault. It's okay.

I keep chanting that on my mind, but my heart is screaming the opposite.