New World | SOOKAI

Chapter 21

200 years of revealed emotions hung in the air around us, the silence it brought with it was suffocating. I could feel Soobin's thighs underneath the back of my head stiffen with the confession of love the other vampire, his maker, had given him. He truly had been oblivious to this fact this whole time?. Years I could barely comprehend. I couldn't even stand to wait 2 weeks to tell Soobin how I felt. But Yeonjun..

"We used to be more alike, you and I. Especially during that time. I thought too much. Always about you. Forever worried that you would fear who I was.. What I am. I wasted those two years. Not even having enough courage to introduce myself. Not like you did with Kai."

I suddenly felt so sad, but it was an odd sadness. Hearing someone else confessing their love for your love. But jealousy hadn't touched my heart.. yet.

"And then a small group of new vampires entered town. I knew it wouldn't take them long to notice you, and notice you, they did. I was at a loss. I couldn't just let you die. They.. forced my hand."

Oh, Yeonjun... what a truly terrible predicament to be in. Even though he still hadn't finished his tale of the past, I already knew where he was going with it.

"You.. turned me because.." Soobin let the end of his sentence fall off and Yeonjun picked it up.

"Because I still had hope, Soobin." Yeonjun's voice cracked under the emotions, now too heavy to keep hold. His pained sighs told me he was now crying.

"I held onto the hope that.. You could know me. That you could love me in return."

.. Had, Soobin? Once upon a time? Was he about to confess to something too..? To tell a tale far, far older than my existence?

"Yeonjun.." Soobin whispered out. He sounded just as pained as the other.

A small inkling of jealousy was now making its way into my heart. I couldn't stop it. I was only human still. I could barely stand the silence between them. Say something. Say something to make this stop. I've had enough of being strapped into this emotional rollercoaster and I want to get out now.

"So I played the part of a shy, strange immortal. Trying to get to know you better. Trying to guide you. Trying to open up that godforsaken thick head of yours."

Yeonjun fought with his tears now with the way his voice deepened again. My envy slowly ebbed away with his tone. Soobin was difficult to figure out, even then?

"I tried to get you to hunt with me, but you never did. You stuck to your deer, your sheep, your pigs.."

I began to relax more now as Yeonjun carried on. Soobin really had hidden from his existence from the very beginning and tried to remain human with everything he could. Even Yeonjun couldn't tempt him to stray from his path of moral abstinence. I'm.. deeply impressed with you, Soobin. You don't give yourself enough credit.

"It then got to a point where you would yell at me, cursing me for the way I embraced the night. I let my instincts blindly outweigh my feelings for you. I was... too addicted to the thrill. Too addicted to change to become something that would be even mildly acceptable in your eyes."

There was a small pause and Yeonjun continued in a whisper, his voice deepening even further.

"Too close to hell to be inside your heaven."

Yeonjun had accepted that they were too contrasting. He was too far gone,'beyond the pale'; beyond Soobin's humanity to exist in perfect harmony.

"So I distanced myself. I further embraced the night and everything it could offer me. Trying to fill myself with it to compensate. But.. none of it was ever enough. Not only did I realize we were two vastly different people, but that I had made a mistake in turning you. I could see you hated this existence; the night I had forced upon you. I took your choices away that night, Soobin. It hurt me deeper than any form of rejection you could have ever given me."