Don't leave me.. {A TsukkiYama FanFic}

s-she did w-w-what...

***TW: $UICID3, BL00D, ABUS3, D3PR3$$I0N+***

Yamaguchi's POV 

*flashback* 

"whats wrong tadashi" i hear my sister, samatchi, say "u-um these k-kids are just being m-mean.." it was was worse than that.. but i've never really been asked that question before, no ones really around at home anymore. "i know mom has superrrr long shifts now and dads away fighting in the army-" dad was out there for at least three years we got cards and calls the first year, but they suddenly stopped the second year 'they're keeping something from me' "and you only ever talked to them bout' this stuff" she came and sat on my bed and hugged my shoulder "but you can talk to me, yammy." there was a long pause but it wasn't awkward it was more both of us thinking of what to do. but i don't know what she was thinking "what's really been going on?" i hug sam back recalling what they all say. i was diagnosed with depression late last year after mom took us both to therapy, that was around the time dad stopped communicating. I've been bullied since 3rd grade for being weak. 

sam is in 10th grade while im in 7th she got out of school 1 hour before me. 

she pulls me away and wipes my tears "well, did you know i'm jealous of you?" i look at her all confused "why would you be jealous of me?" she laughs "because you have tsukki silly! i hear everyone's afraid of him so they don't bother you as much as they used to." i blush a bit "yeah, but he's kinda mean.." 

"well i'm sure he'll soften up" she then gave me a warm smile

*Flashback over*

'not really' i smile to myself. i haven't smiled since i got home. today was very different but what happened wasn't unexpected. she was now in 12th grade as i'm in 9th

*Flashback bout 5 hours earlier*

It was just like any other afternoon walked home with tsukki after volleyball practice and said goodbye once i got home. I threw my bookbag down after i locked the door and ran straight to samatchi's room but the door was locked and had a note on it 

"Dear yams," 

"hey lil bro i know you probably noticed my door is locked because its always open when you get home."

i could hear her laugh to herself, she would do that everytime she made a similar 'joke'

"don't waste away your life like me. you have so much ahead of you, unlike me. i love you so much. remember what i said about tsukki..." 

'he might not seem like it but he probably needs you also.'

"..so don't leave him, he hasn't left you, despite his attitude. please throw away your blade forever this time. tell mom i love her, goodbye. remember every hour to every minute to every second counts, don't give up."

i fall to the floor sobbing and angry "why the hell would you leave me?!" i scream "YOU BETTER AS HELL BE BREATHING WHEN I GET IN THERE" i try to stand but i trip from shaking

minutes later of my head flooding with thoughts i get the strength to stand up. and in a fit of anger i break down the door. i cant believe that i actually did that... i look up and freeze. I stand there, frozen, staring at her lifeless body. i couldn't see clearly through my tears, but i could make out a puddle of red around her. i move closer to her. she was dead. but i didn't want to believe it. i wipe away my tears with my hand to see her clearly.