Don't leave me.. {A TsukkiYama FanFic}

Sad yams and sad mama yam (and hinata)

TW: $u*c*d3, cutt*ng, depre$*on, and more  

wait am i good at writing?! nani? i was terrible last year hehe. i also cried while making last chapter cuz that was a little close to home, anyway on with the story.

Yams POV

i told him all about sam after we made it my room. i was sobbing and when i finally calmed down he asked me "why didn't you call tsukishima, i mean im super happy to help its just.. isn't tsukishima your best friend?" 

"t-tsukki is my best friend.. i-i just don't think he'd answer m-my calls" i start to cry again dammit why am i so fucking weak!? "a-and even if he did answer he would be k-kinda rude.. y'know b-but that just tsukki.." i continue. hinata looks at me with compassion "b-but i-i dont think i could take a-another.... or even j-just a g-gla-" i stop choked by my sobs. hinata hug me for a minute then we pull back and he says "i could have kags and noya guard you from him till your comfortable with.. tsukishima's remarks." 

"o-okay, it's not l-like tsukki w-would c-care" i go back to my sobbing and hinata calms me down. "can i see your wrists for a sec?" 'fuck he knows'  i show him pulling back my hoodie sleeves. "do you have bandages in your house?" 'what he's not gonna yell at me like mom?'

he bandages up my arms and sits back down 

"do you wanna watch a movie?" 

"s-sure.." i cant believe im 'hanging out' with this baked bean,,,, i mean it was my 4th to last choice and hes not that bad but still, tsukki hates him. we chose ariel and we sob at all the sad parts and he laughs at the 'funny' parts 

~o0o'Later'o0o~

the movie finished and we were snacking on a apple i just cut up. (i love how hey are just casually snacking after yams sister k*lled herself and she still in her room- imma fix that in a bit tho)

"hey.. um yamaguchi?" hinata looked concerned. i was crying on the inside still even though my tears had gone dry. "yea?" i say my voice shaking a bit. "did you ever call 9-1-1?" 'oh shit' i had forgotten all about that. 

i grab the house phone and call starting to sob again. i tell them my name and that i have my friend over that was helping me calm down from what just happened. i give them my address and tell them what happened and how long ago it happened. i had to repeat myself multiple time because they didn't understand me the first time. (this paragraph was kinda rushed sorry..) 

###########when the po po and ambu stuff got there#############

i walk them through what happened as hinata walks the other detective through what he did. i was lightly crying, not wanting to look like a baby in front of the adults, too many people already think i am.. the ambulance leaves with her very dead body and clean up some of the blood. i tell the nice lady who was helping me calm down that i could tell my mother for them. 

later hinata leaves, leaving me with my thoughts. i send mom a text saying 'hey there's something i need to tell you wake me up when you get home' i sob at the thought of telling her and i cry myself to sleep drowning in pain.

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"hey wake up yams! you said you needed to tell me something? what is it? have you been crying?!" i wake up and immediately remember what happened less then 7 hours ago.  i hold back my tears "m-mom. sam....... sam....ki-killed... her-herself.." mom falls onto my bed hugging me and sobbing. i let go of the tears i've been holding in.  

that was a small chapter sowwy but i immediately start working on the next chapter! Don't forget to give it a vote :) ily all ty! <3