Help me

Maybe if u stayed things would've been alright

Tell me if u miss me
That our friendship was important to u. I wish they're times when u have a problem n you'll sit there n think that u could've been talking to me about ur problems.As much as I can't stand u sometimes.I miss u A lot. During these circumstances, I don't know what to say anymore.
Other then goodluck

But u were always there to guide me in a way. But now I feel as if I had an image of u

Or an idea that u were the greatest friend. But u weren't. Weren't you?. But u were there, u wanted to hang with me, we could sit in silence. I'm not a great talker so like we j say u always started the conversation. N sometimes I would carry on. I felt like I could be myself around you. N being weird n shit is fine.

Like today as well... I wanted to tel you all about my annoying friend. But u weren't there. So there's this whole inside of me and j wishing that I can rant to someone. so then I guess this is a way for me to cope. To talk to myself. Maybe that'll help me forget you. N I don't know what to do .
He's getting a bit annoying, Like sometimes I can't stand him. Like I'm supposed to hang with my other guy friend right n he was like can I come join. So I was like sure y not. N now he's inviting a 15 yo to hang with us. Like ded. Sis what's ur point. Me n my guy frriend has better things to talk about n we vibe. But if u bring a kid tf m I gg to talk about. I can be really awkward.

But your not there to help me anymore aren't you?