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Silent Cry (Roman)

Warnings: Angst, crying, implying suicide to others, suicide, self-harm, cutting, bleeding, overdosing

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Remus and Roman share a room. Remus had started to notice that Roman is starting to listen to and sing sadder songs.
This had Remus slightly worried, but he figured Roman just needed a sad phase. Understandable, he thought.

"Hey, Pat." Roman says, forcing a smile. "Hey kiddo! How are you?" Patton replied happily, not being able to tell that the smile was fake.
"Well to be honest, I'm kinda rough right now.." Roman says, looking at him. "Aww, kiddo, it'll be okay! Just keep pushing through, okay?" Patton says.

Roman nods, looking down when Patton walked away. He went to the bathroom and grabbed a razor blade he hid from everyone, taking his top off to cut along his arms. He wore a black T-shirt underneath his normal attire.
He did quite a number on his arms before putting the blade away and putting his prince top back on. Of course, it started to stain red at the cuffs, but he didn't think anyone would notice.

He went back to his room, where Remus was bouncing an eyeball rubber ball. Remus looked up at Roman, seeing the blood stains on his usually white top.

Roman lays on his bed, putting his arm over his eyes. He decided; soon, he'll end it. Her waved his other hand a little, which drops the crown he likes to wear into Remus's lap.
Remus looked at it, then at Roman. "Do what you want with it, I don't want it anymore.." Roman says, struggling to keep his tears down.

"Roman, you love this thing. Why would you give it to me?" Remus asks, extremely concerned now. "What, I can't be nice to my brother for once..? Enjoy it.." Roman mumbles, crying silently into his arm.
Remus frowns when Roman started softly muttering the lyrics to "Wide Awake". Not even singing like usual. Just sad little mutters.

A few days later, Roman took a bottle of Aspirin, making sure no one saw as he took it to his room. Remus was in the imaginary enchanted forest, doing god knows what.
Roman summoned a glass of water, taking all the pills that were in the bottle. He knew it would take a while for it to kick in, so he decided to silently say goodbye to everyone.

First, Patton.

"Hey, Pat? I just want to say thank you, for everything... For being a father figure, for always trying to cheer everyone up on a bad day.." Roman says, holding back tears and forcing a smile.

Patton looks at him, smiling nervously. "Well thanks kiddo, but.. Where's this coming from all of the sudden?" he asks. Roman shook his head, keeping his fake smile. "Just thought I'd say it."

Next, Virgil.

"Hello, Hot Topic." Roman says. Virgil looks at him, quirking an eyebrow. Roman just continued. "Just wanted to say... I don't hate you. Keep looking after Thomas, okay..?" he says, smile faltering slightly.
Virgil frowns a little. "Why do I feel like you just gave me a verbal suicide note?" he says. Roman didn't respond and just walked away to find Logan.

Virgil was worried now.

"Logan, hey." Roman says once he found Logan. "Yes?" Logan asks, putting his book down. "Just um... You're important. I want you to know that, okay?" Roman says, tearing up despite his efforts.

"I-.. I'm flattered, but what's the matter?" Logan asks. Roman shook his head, forcing a smile and going to the dark side, finding Janus.

"What do you want, Roman?" Janus asks before Roman could speak. "I just... I'm sorry. For making fun of your name. It's actually quite nice.. And.. I won't ever make fun of you or anyone again, okay..?" Roman says.

"Ooookayyyy?" Janus says, confused.

Remus went back to their room, seeing the open bottle. A sudden wave of dread and realization washed over him, his face paling.

He went to find his brother, who had been heading back to their room. "Roman!! You stupid prince, why didn't you tell anyone?! Why didn't I realize- please don't tell me you actually did that!!" Remus says, holding Roman by the shoulders.

Roman started to space out, but looked at Remus, smiling sadly. "Remus.. My little brother.. Take over for me, okay..?" he says, tears finally streaming down his cheeks.
Remus stared at him in shock. "R-roman no!! I can't!!" he says. Roman smiles through his tears. "You can.. You can..." he whispered, eyes falling shut.

"Logan!! Patton-! Anyone help!!" Remus calls, to which the two and Virgil show up. "Remus what's-... What happened to Roman..?" Patton asks.
Remus started crying. Logan put two fingers to Roman's pulse point on his neck, frowning nervously. Nothing. He pulled his fingers off slowly, staring in shock.

"No pulse.." he says, looking at the other two. Patton put his hands to his mouth and started crying. "I knew it I knew it I knew it-..." Virgil repeated, sinking against the wall and putting his head in his knees, also crying.
Logan covered his mouth in shock, Remus hugging Roman tightly and crying. "Remus, what happened?" Logan asks. "H-he overdosed.." Remus stuttered, hiccuping.

Patton hugged Virgil, still crying but trying to be comforting.

How were they going to tell Thomas?