𝐀𝐔𝐑𝐎𝐑𝐀
the night is chilly, as octobers usually are in new york, making me briskly walk back to my apartment building that luckily isn't too far from my work.
i sigh heavily as i round the corner to my small home, hoping my roommates aren't awake so they aren't aware of how truly crappy this past week has been for me, and so i can have a good cry in the shower without burdening anyone else with my problems.
i hold my breath as i walk into the apartment, hoping that my best friends aren't home, or sleeping. because if anyone could tell im upset, it would be them.
i gently place my keys on the counter as I lock the door, before I head to my room to change for the night. i hear soft footsteps rounding the corner, and my heart beat speeds up as i can hear a soft "you're home!" from around the corner.
my tired eyes find my best friends bright ones as she reaches the main area of our apartment. "hey, yeah, sorry, we got like ten customers in five minutes before close," i softly say. she immediately notices my mood just by looking at the fake smile i have plastered on my face, because hers drops from her face.
"rora, what's wrong? are you okay?"
i smile faintly at her. "just tired." i lamely respond, knowing one of my best friends since the sixth grade isn't going to buy into that.
"do you think i'm stupid?" she responds as i turn around and head to my room, and she follows me. i fish around my drawers for my favorite pair of sweatpants as she is quick on my heels. "hello? i'm talking to you aurora."
i sigh heavily and meet her saddened gaze.
"you know exactly why i am upset, especially this week, so please try and understand that i want a little space."
the look of remembrance crosses her face, her mouth forming into a line as she rubs her temple smoothly. "i'm so sorry rora i completely blanked that it was this week."
"you have absolutely nothing to apologize for, b, it wasn't your fault. you're one of the only people who made it a tiny bit bearable" i weakly smile at her and slip into the bathroom to start my nightly routine.
she shuffles in behind me, asking me about my customers, and making sure she gets every detail right, reminding me why i love her so much. she cares about the little things.
just as i was telling her about the lady who ordered a latte for her five year old daughter, channing pops her head in the door frame, a huge grin covering her face.
"soooooo, did you tell her?" she wiggles her eyes at blakely, but immediately stops when she sees my depressive mood.
"oh my gosh, are you okay? i am so sorry, did i interupt something?"
i lightly laugh. "no, chan, this week is just been sucky and this weekend is going to be worse."
her face immediately scrunches, recalling the forbidden past of 3 years ago, and she looks back at me. "do you want me to go get you some icecream? we can start a movie."
i softly smile at their peering eyes, knowing both of these girls would do absolutely anything for me if i asked them to. "seriously, thank you, but i'm okay. now what is it that i need to know?" i say, meeting my own gaze in the mirror and lazily throwing my long hair into a messy bun.
blakely's face immediately turns pink and she looks at me in the reflection, and i don't even have to ask.
i turn around fast. "SHUT UP. spence finally grew a pair and asked you?" i squeal, my frown turning into the biggest smile i could muster.
"yeah it was weird. all four of us were sitting around watching a movie and he was fidgeting and i asked him if he was okay, because it's not like him to get nervous, you know? and he was playing with his fingers and he looked up at me and asked in a really soft voice if he could take me out this weekend. it was pretty cute," she gushed.
"OH my gosh b, that is so exciting. I've been rooting for you two for literally the longest time," i manage to say, as my excitement for her dies down and i'm in my own thoughts again. she continues talking about him and i nod along, washing my face to tune out the thoughts in my head with the running water.
every little detail about how their hands brushed under the blanket or how he was playing with her hair made me dizzy.
it sent me back to four years ago, and then i kept spiraling.
i turned off the sink as replays on the continuous loop of, "listen, i think we need to figure out life without each other..." played over and over in my head.
it was then that they realized my breathing became heavier, and they grab me.
"rora, it's okay, we're here, let it out."
those words were all i needed to sink to the floor and start to whimper, the tears cascading down my cheeks slowly at first, then faster as i began to need to catch my breath.
i felt their arms engulf me in a hug, their sniffs echoing off the tile floor every so often.
"g-guys, i am s-s-so sorry. i-i didn't want to s-say anything s-so i wouldn't get you b-both so upset again and i-i didn't want to r-ruin your night" i amange to say before crying softly again.
"hey, hey," blakely coos at me, rubbing my back as she muffles into my shoulder, "you are not ruining our night. we care way more about you then icky boys and movies. we love you and you are our first priority, especially when you're upset, and especially this week."
"neither of us want to see you go through this week alone, especially not us." channing says, chiming in.
"thanks guys." i sniff, beginning to settle down.
"how about i start you a chamomile tea and chan starts an oatmeal bath for you?"
my eyes well up with happy tears, because i already am pretty emotional.
"what would i do without you?"
they squeeze my shoulders and blakely leaves the room to start the tea, and channing gets up to start the bath.
"i'm so sorry you have to go through things like this," channing says, her eyes watering at the bottom, "it breaks my heart to see you like this. all i want is for you to be happy. i would trade places with you in a heartbeat"
my heart stops. "don't say that, you know they only happen because of what happened after my mom." i say, tears stinging my eyes, yet again.
especially after the last talk i had with him the day she died.
she turns around after tuning the water on and grabbing the packet of the oatmeal bath. "i know, it's just not fair. you're one of the best people i've ever met and it seems like you can't catch a break. i am so sorry." she sniffs again.
"chan, it's okay, really. i promise. i'll get there eventually."
she turns around, finished, and hugs me tightly. "i love you too mvuh to handle this much longer."
just then, blakely comes in with my steaming sup of tea, and i smile as the warm mug is placed in my hand.
"who's up for a girls day tomorrow?"
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hey guys!
i hope this is a good intro, i promise the star of the show will be appearing soon, but i needed to add some background before dropping a lot of crap on you haha!!
i hope you all had an amazing week!! :)
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𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐃; t.chalamet
Fanfiction"don't you get it timothée? you're never going to understand what i went through all because of you." [social media x real life] timothée chalamet fanfic
