Rebirth of a Fashionista: This Life Is Soo Last Season

Chapter 199 - Demonstration

Jiaoyang, what should I do?

Sheng Jiaoyang didn't know what should be done. She never thought she'd feel so torn when she finally found out why Lin Yan didn't return her feelings.

"I don't know..." She was at a loss too.

Lin Yan stretched out his hands to grab hold of her, not allowing her to retreat as he asked, "Do you love him?"

By 'him', Lin Yan was naturally referring to Shen Zhining.

Sheng Jiaoyang was stunned. Do I like Shen Zhining? That was even tougher than answering the question, 'Did she still like Lin Yan?' Her feelings towards Shen Zhining were complicated. She was a little terrified of him, but she had a lot of trust in him. She felt comfortable when they were intimate, and even when grandfather had mentioned them marrying in the future, she wasn't repulsed by that at all and accepted it readily. But, to say that she loved him...

She looked at Lin Yan. Although her heart would skip a beat and her face would blush when she was with Shen Zhining, it was never the same feelings she had when she was crushing on Lin Yan. Thinking of Lin Yan would make her happy, seeing him would make her excited, her heart raced faster when he was close to her, and she'd get emotional when he seemed aloof.

"You don't love him," Lin Yan said in an affirmative tone.

Sheng Jiaoyang went silent.

The corners of Lin Yan's lips raised slightly, but he swiftly retracted his smile and said, "Jiaoyang, you must follow your own heart, don't make do with things. You have a whole new life now, so you should live it the way you want."

Sheng Jiaoyang understood what he meant, but she hesitated at the thought of breaking up with Shen Zhining. While her feelings for Shen Zhining hadn't reached the point of love, it had reached the point of like. Moreover, Shen Zhining's previous reaction when she'd asked to break up had caused her some psychological trauma, and she was afraid that he'd do something more outrageous.

Of course, most importantly, she'd already lost the impulse to forget about herself just for Lin Yan.

"Lin Yan." Sheng Jiaoyang looked at him and said seriously, "Everything that I do now is according to my heart, including dating Shen Zhining."

Lin Yan was shocked. "You..."

Sheng Jiaoyang slowly withdrew her hand from his warm palms and sighed. "It's very easy to develop feelings for someone. When I was sick, he sent me to the hospital. When I woke up, he was the first one I saw. When he placed his jacket over me...I probably developed feelings for him unknowingly. I admit that I don't love him yet, but I believe that in time, I'll fall in love with him."

Lin Yan's gaze landed on his hand, his empty palm feeling like a reflection of the emptiness in his heart.

"Can you really give up on the six years between us?" Gloom crept up his face.

"I can't bear to."

Lin Yan looked up at Sheng Jiaoyang in surprise, but he noticed her calm countenance. The glimmer in his eyes dimmed. Looking at her expression, he knew what she would say next.

Indeed, she continued, "So, what if I can't bear to? I'm already exhausted and don't wish to chase after you anymore."

"Then, let me do the chasing this time."

"No, you can't do it. The responsibilities that you carry make it impossible for you to do it."

"I haven't even started, so how do you know that I can't?"