Patching The Indelible Feelings

Chapter 30|| Stop

KIA

"The fck?!"

I immediately closed my eyes. I already see this reaction of her coming.

"Tangna! Putang'na lang Kianna!" She yelled again in front of me and all I can do is to listen to all her cuss and rants.

I just came home a while ago. I can still even feel Matt inside me and the pain between my thigh is the living evidence on what happened to us yesterday. I still can't believe I already lost my virginity, but, I don't mind at all now, at least it's Matt. I won't ever felt any regret on what happened to us caused I also wanted what happened.

I didn't wake him anymore. He looked at peace while sleeping earlier and I couldn't help but to tear up while looking at him a while ago. It's been a long time since I saw him that close, since I kissed him that deep, since I felt his tight and warm hugged and... since I felt him in my arms.

Everything felt so alive again in my body. Like I've been born again after what happened to us. He... he said he loves me. I couldn't help myself but to smile like an idiot after he passed out from being so tired. The warmth coming from his hugged and the magic words he said made my heart flutter in so much joy.

Akala ko sa panaginip ko nalang maririnig ulit ang mga salita na yun sa kanya pero... sinabi niya. I felt it. How he put all his love to me yesterday. How he made me feel his love. I felt it all. I've long from his touch, from his lips, from all of him and I can't still believe that I felt them again yesterday.

"Are you even listening to me Kia?!" Ki's voice immediately snapped me back from reality.

We're inside my apartment now. I'm sitting in front of her while she was standing in front of me. She looks so angry while looking straight in my eyes. I called her earlier and told her what happened. She immediately flew all the way here from Australia. Both of her hands are close tightly and from her neck to her face, the redness of her skin because of the emotion she's containing is already very visible.

"I'm sorry Ki." My eyes shut down tightly when she cussed so hard again.

"Tangna'ng sorry yan! Mababalik ba ang nangyari sa sorry na yan ha, Kia?! Sinabihan na kita diba?! Um-oo ka pa! Sabi mo naintindihan mo, pero putang'na lang! Ano tong ginawa mo?!" She pulled her own hair in frustration and looked up from the ceiling. She tucked her tongue inside the side of her cheek as she breath heavily. I know where this is heading. She's about to cry.

"I know it's wrong K,i but can you blame me? Ginusto ko lang naman maging masaya. And what happened yesterday made me the happiest. Diba yun naman ang gusto mo? Ang maging masaya ako? Kaya nga pumayag ka sa naging plano ko diba?" I reasoned out. Her eyes are bloodshot as she looked at me.