Love and Bruises

Chapter 6

Oh my gosh this is so late huhu TwT

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It had been three hours after his check up and Tadashi seemed like he still can't help but think about what doctor Ushijima said, he's still contemplating if he should still tell it to Tsukki or not.

What for? Why would I say it to him? As if I'm special..

He slightly bowed his head and felt the liquid coming out from his eyes down to his cheek. He sniffled and wiped it off. He raised his head and reached for the remote at the table beside him to watch something in the tv.

He settled on some documentary about birds and tried directing his focus at the show in front of him than think of a certain blonde. But his mind just doesn't seem to cooperate, he always finds himself deep in thought and imagining things. It was like, the tv is on and in front of him but his mind is flying elsewhere.

After minutes of just staring at the tv, a click snapped him out of his trance and made him jump. He turned to see who came in and his face lit up when Tsukishima came into view.

"Tsukki!" he bubbly beamed.

Tsukishima just smiled and proceeded on sitting beside Yamaguchi's bed. He dropped his bag beside him after taking out a notebook. Yamaguchi peeked at it curiously, with his lips on a pout. Tsukishima turned to him when he saw what Yamaguchi was doing in his peripheral vision, he smiled embarassingly when caught.

"I-Is that your homework?" he finally stuttered.

"Yeah"

Yamaguchi pouted when a question came into him. He hasn't been in school for weeks now, surely he had already missed tons of lessons. He knows once he's discharged he has to go back to school, and just thinking about it is pressuring him. And above all those pressures from missed lessons, what makes him more anxious are the bullies. Surely, the news of him slitting his wrists must've spread in the whole campus.

W-What if they bully me more? They'd see me as more weak.. more fragile..

His thumbs started fidgeting at all of the possible scenarios that might happen once he's at school again. "D-Do I have to get back to school once I'm discharged?" he asked with his head, now, bowed down and his voice.. somehow.. sad.

Tsukishima observed on how Yamaguchi was acting, he was acting as if he doesn't wanna go back to school, his brows furrowed and his eyes narrowed as he think of ways on why Yamaguchi is acting all anxious.

'Is school a reason why he was depressed?'

He tried remembering all their times at his school, he always seemed so happy and energetic. His thoughts are just going deeper and deeper until a tap on the shoulder woke him up. He looked at who tapped at him and it was greeted by the cute face of Yamaguchi.

"Is there anything wrong? I was calling you a couple of times but it seems like you're deep in thought" his voice laced with worry.

Tsukishima smiled and patted Yamaguchi's hair, which sent a wave of blush in his face but Tsukishima seemed oblivious of it.

Tsukishima scooted closer to Yamaguchi and sat beside him in his bed. Yamaguchi's face is now in a deeper blush so he bowed down to hide it from the blonde as he calm himself down.

"Tadashi.. say, do you still want to go to school? You don't have to if you don't want to.." he asked and leaned closer.

Yamaguchi's heart seemed to have dropped and his head shot up to look at the blonde boy in front of him.

Have he noticed? Oh no.. he must think I'm weak now.. he'll think I'm too weak and he'll get tired of me and stop being friends with me and then..

Negative thoughts slowly crept inside his mind and added to his anxiety. His breathing started getting ragged and his hands became shaky. His eyes were still glued to the person in front of him but his mind is getting clouded from all the negative thoughts. His sight became blurry and can't seem to focus.