comfort • ateez woosang

confession

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it took a lot to make yeosang cry, and usually he hated feeling weak. but as wooyoung hugged him tighter and tighter he was on the verge of breaking down, sobbing loudly and grabbing onto the younger's shoulders.

"yeosang? yeo...please..."

wooyoung bit his lip anxiously as the older was clearly distressed. he gently moved yeosang's head to look him in the eyes.

"come on sangie, please don't cry... he's not worth crying for. hold my hand...and breathe."

as yeosang nodded and put a hand over his mouth, wooyoung stretched over to push the door completely shut. then he wrapped an arm round the other and led him into his sitting room. they sat in silence as the older of the pair calmed himself.

"i-i'm sorry for turning up unannounced. really, i wasn't thinking correctly-"

"don't worry about it, you were upset. it's...unfortunate about you seongwha."

"i'm confused. i don't understand what i did wrong, and why he'd want to...cheat on me-"

"some people never change though, do they?" wooyoung mumbled to himself, causing yeosang to cast him an angry look.

"and you were right all along...like usual. i'm so stupid."

"no." the younger of the pair stated firmly, shifting towards him across the couch. "you aren't stupid. you're honest and ready to put your trust in everyone...even those people who don't deserve it. you've always been that way. it's one of the things i love most about you." he dropped his eyes to the carpet in embarrassment. "well, loved about you...i've haven't seen you in a year. you could of changed."

"i don't think i have, i'm still the same old person i was when i was trying to figure out how to tie a tie at my bachelor party. and you're the same person who chugged five pints of beer at that party."

for the first time that night both of them were smiling.

"i remember that... surprisingly. i was wasted wasn't i?"

"yup. and mingi broke the pool table, and san got a sprained wrist after he challenged jongho to arm wrestling."

by now both of them were laughing loudly, and the memories were flooding back.

"and-and then you disappeared for half the evening, and came back with a pigeon-" yeosang giggled, holding his stomach.

"oh-oh yeah..."

"where did you even go again?"

"i think i was crying... in the upstairs bathroom."

"wait, what?" the older of the pair stopped laughing, and his face fell slightly. "you never told me that..."

"i don't know why, but it just kinda hit me at that moment that you were actually getting married and, i don't know... it hurt." wooyoung turned away, so he didn't have to see the expression of shock on yeosang's face. "i was loosing you. and i still feel so selfish about it, but i couldn't stop thinking about all the years we'd been with each other and that was coming to end. so, i just cried... and cried."

wooyoung couldn't look at yeosang as his eyes began to prickle with tears. he continued in a shaking voice.

"even now i sometimes flick through our old texts and feel the same. i'd spent so much time arguing with you about seongwha that i'd pushed you away..." now it was time for the younger to sniff, feeling guilt wash over him again.

"woo... i had no clue, i'm sorry."

"it's not your fault in any way, it's mine for having eight years to tell you how i felt and still fucking it up. i was, and still are...in love with you..."

a grim silence hung in the air. wooyoung had his head in hands, and he could hear yeosang getting up from the couch, probably to leave. but, to his shock, he felt a hand on his shoulder. wooyoung looked up, and immediately looked dead into two familiar brown eyes. then in a split second, yeosang had his arms round wooyoung's waist and was hugging him as tight as he could.

"i've missed you." the older of the pair whispered, breaking the silence.

"y-you're confusing me-" wooyoung began, but he was cut off by a pair of lips against his.

however, about a second later yeosang broke off with wide eyes.

"was that okay? i-i forgot to ask..."

wooyoung couldn't stop himself from smiling as he slipped his arms around yeosang.

"you really haven't changed a bit... god i love you." he whispered, and he felt yeosang relax. he wasn't ever letting him go again.

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