No. No I refuse to admit it. No. He couldn't be gone. Too far away from me to return. In another place. It was supposedly a tragic accident, but with our history I seriously doubted it. Now I know how he felt. This was a pain I can't describe, like losing a part of your soul. But for me it wasn't just a part of my soul, it was my whole soul. That's what John Is to me, everything. I couldn't deal with the accident. One minute we were standing and laughing, the next he was on the pavement with a halo of blood around his head and my arms around him. The car had come out of nowhere. Tears were dripping on to his face from my eyes. No. I couldn't think about that now. I have to stay calm for him. I took a deep breath and tried to get lost in my mind palace, but every door I took led to John. His face, his smile, his laugh. His lips. His everything. My John. I felt tears falling down my face. Onto my lap. I couldn't deal with this. I couldn't. My John could still live. He could still survive. He could see me again. I could see his smiling face with laughter in his face. Love in his eyes. When he calls me an idiot. Tells me he loves me. When he tried to be smart. A small laugh that sounds more like a choke escapes my mouth. I loved him. I really did. I couldn't lose him.
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A birthday to remember (JOHNLOCK fanfic)
FanficThis is a JOHNLOCK fanfic and my friend wrote it but she doesn't have watt pad and she said I could put it on here so yeah this is hers!
