Artificial Love

23- Uncontrolled addiction

After the two went a few more kinky rounds, Felix was feeling tired as he was cuddled in Chan's arms.

"You're so cute Lixie" Chan teased kissing him softly, the younger was laying on his chest playing with Chan's hand, interlocking their fingers.

"Channie..." he giggled looking up at him.

"God I love your giggles too...you're making me softer every minute" Chan smiled kissing him again.

The younger kissed him back before sitting up.

"As much as I love your new personality Chan, I have to go" Felix gave a small smile as he was about to get off the older.

"What? Baby, no. 5 more minutes" Chan whined pulling Felix back by his waist.

"Channie I told you I have to get my study things...I won't be long" Felix sighed as the older pulled him to lay down next to him.

"And I told you I would come with you~" he teased stroking his waist and kissing him again.

"Chan, and I told you that you didn't have to" Felix smiled into his kisses, cupping Chan's cheeks as the older pulled him even closer.

He loved the feeling of their bare bodies tangled with one another, the feeling of being connected to someone he trusted and now loved.

"But I want too" Chan teased kissing his cheeks.

"Channie, you'll survive 30 minutes without me" Felix gave him a look trying to get up again.

"That's still too long" Chan said a little more adamant this time. He pulled Felix again back down on top of him.

"Chan! Let me go...I have to go-"

"Not unless I come with you" Chan said more demanding.

"Chan, you're not coming with me. I'll be back-"

"It's like you don't want me to" Chan raised an eyebrow.

"Chan...don't be like that" Felix rolled his eyes slipping his arms around Chan's neck as the older sat up holding Felix in his lap.

The older narrowed his eyes looking at him.

"It is that...isn't it?"

"Chan..." Felix sighed in annoyance.

"I know it is, tell me why you don't want me coming over to your place" he said lower this time.

"Chan...don't make this a big deal. I'm going-"

Felix huffed as he was about to get off Chan's lap, but the older held Felix in place by his waist.

"No, you're not going until you tell me why" Chan said a bit louder.

"Chan, let me go" Felix gave him a look again.

"I already said no Felix until you tell me why" Chan said looking him in the eyes.

Felix huffed again grabbing Chan's arms to pull on his waist until the older grabbed his own.

"If you go without telling me, there will be punishment again" Chan said giving him a look as well.

Felix getting more annoyed went off.

"Fine! You know why I don't want you coming over? It's because I don't want you to see how poor I am!" He yelled at Chan.

The older furrowed his eyebrows.

"Lix...what...?"

"If you couldn't tell Chan, even though being your secretary pays well. I'm still in debt to my school which is why I live in a shitty small ass apartment" Felix snapped at him crossing his arms.

"Baby...I've seen your apartment before...what's wrong with it?" Chan asked in confusion cupping his cheeks.

"Because it's not nice like your home is..." Felix said quietly looking down.

"Lix..."

"I don't have an expensive nice house, I don't have expensive clothes like you or a fancy car" Felix said starting to tear up.

"Felix..."

"I don't have a ton of credit cards like you to use, I don't have investments like you, I don't have a ton of money like you..." he sniffled looking back at him.

"Felix, why would you think that matters to me...? I love you for you...not if you have the same wealth status as me or not..." Chan said softly.

"I-I know...but still...it makes me feel I'm not good enough for you...that's why I don't want you to keep seeing where I live...it's embarrassing..." he mumbled.

"Lix..." Chan sighed pulling him into a hug, the younger clinging on to him as he hugged him back.

"Felix I don't want you to ever think you're not good enough for me...and I see nothing wrong with your apartment...I think it's small and cute..." Chan smiled whispering near his ear.

The younger nodded as he held on tighter to Chan.

"Just because you don't have what I have, doesn't mean I think any less of you. Ok?" Chan leaned back looking at him.

"Y-yes Channie..." Felix said quietly.

"Besides, it just means I can spoil my cute boyfriend even more" Chan teased lightly making Felix smile again and giggle.

"A-as long as you still buy me desserts" he said shyly.

"I'll promise to buy you any dessert and more baby boy" Chan smiled pulling him into a kiss.

"So, shall we go?"

~

They eventually went to Felix's place to get his things to study, as well as some of his clothes to stay over Chan's place again.

"Chan..."

"Hm...?"

"I can't study properly if you keep doing this!"

"Doing what?"

Jesus help me not smack this man...

Felix was trying to study on Chan's couch, but the older wanted his attention as he joined him. At first Felix was fine with it when Chan wanted to cuddle him from behind, slipping his arms around his waist as he rested his chin on Felix's shoulder.

But Chan kept sighing which was very distracting.

"Chan you keep sighing! I told you I'll be done later..." Felix sighed back scrolling through his laptop.

"I'm not doing anything wrong" Chan shrugged.

Felix whipped his head around glaring.

"Chan, you most definitely are. That's it, off" he huffed pulling Chan's arms off him.

"No" Chan said plainly squeezing him tighter.

"My fucking god Chan! I can't breathe!" Felix lifted his laptop to the other side of the couch, yanking Chan's arms off of him as he stood up.

"Baby, come on..." Chan whined.

"Jesus Chan! Were you this needy in your last relationship?!" Felix crossed his arms scolding him.

The older suddenly became quiet as he looked away, his expression turning dark and cold.

Felix didn't mean what he said to trigger Chan, knowing what the older mentioned about his last relationship being hurt.

The younger instantly regretted it looking to see Chan stand up.

"C-Chan..."

"Sorry" Chan said coldly with a hurt tone as he walked off going upstairs to his room.

Felix watched him turn around the corner and the slam of the bedroom door.

He looked at his laptop before back at the stairs.

I hurt him...without realizing it...

Y'all gonna rage again but...this book ending very soon 🙈🤡