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Mother's Day

I'm finding it hard, my parents died just under a year ago in a car accident. On the day of the accident me and Coby were waiting to be picked up from school to go out for a meal, but in the end we walked home because we hadn't been picked up and we didn't know what was going on. We rang their phones loads of times but there was no answer... I knew something was wrong but I didn't know what to do, I was so worried. Then the next morning a policeman came round our house informing us that our parents were dead. The moment I found out, I couldn't keep myself up, my hands were shaking my legs trembling, I thought everything was over. At that moment there were so many questions running through my head, it was the worst day of my life. Me and Coby were left to pack all of the house stuff into boxes and pack all of our belongings to move in with our aunt Rose.

My mum was the kind of person who would sit and listen to anything I had to say even if she was really busy, she was really nice to everyone and always had a smile on her face. She would support every decision I made and she would show me things that would always cheer me up.

I was dreading tomorrow, it was Mother's Day. It will be the first year without my mum. Coby hadn't been speaking for days. Last year on Mother's Day me and Coby got up early and cooked her some breakfast and gave it to her in bed with a bouquet of flowers, a teddy bear with 'Best mum ever' on it and a balloon saying 'we love you'.

Tomorrow was going to be extremely upsetting and difficult. I was planning on taking a big, colourful bouquet of flowers and a balloon to my mums grave, hopefully with Coby but I was unsure as to wether he will be up to it. I went into Coby's room and sat on the end of the bed he had his earphones in and was listening to music.
"Hey." I whispered, he just groaned
"Listen, I know you are upset and miss mum and dad loads but we need to try and carry on, I want to go to mums grave tomorrow and give her some flowers will you please come with me?"
"Sure." He said giving me a quick hug.
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Today was the day. I just felt like crying my eyes out and staying in bed all day. Other people will be making there mums breakfast and thanking them for being a great mother, I got up to look at the bouquet of flowers that were on my drawers especially for mum. I went for a shower and got ready, I put on a t shirt, hoodie and black leggings. I went to see if Coby was ready to go. He was stood in the living room dressed looking at a picture of mum. The way I felt was unexplainable...

When I drove into the cemetery car park, I felt Coby tense up beside me. I got out the car and got out the flowers and the balloon. I waited for Coby to get out the car and then we both walked over to mum's grave in silence. I carefully placed the flowers and let Coby tie the balloon, we stood there for a few minutes just looking at the grave before I gave him a reassuring squeeze on the shoulder and told him that it would get easier. I felt a tear fall down my face, I wiped it away quickly not wanting Coby to see but it was too late. He pulled me into a hug and then I just couldn't hold in the tears anymore.

I let Coby drive us home as I wasn't stable. Once I got home, I went straight upstairs into my room and put on my fleecy onesie and went to bed. It had been enough for one day!

This chapter has been quite hard to write but I can't believe I have done two updates in one night!! The next chapter will be sometime in the week!! Thank you everyone who is reading it! Please vote and comment! Xxx