Hurt By The One I Loved

Last Day On Set

Lauren’s POV

I woke up. I didn't know what time it was since I fell asleep when Steven left. I got up and walked down the hall into the living room, and then the kitchen. My phone was on the table, I picked it up and saw it was 2:53 am. I was exhausted, but I wasn't gonna go to sleep, I always had nightmares, they were about losing Steven, and the nightmare isn't about losing him anymore. Its just. Him. I decided I would take a shower and get ready for filming today, I decided I was gonna quit. I'm done. With everything. The Show. Steven. And Life.

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I got out of the shower and got dressed in a pair of black shorts, and a gray T-shirt. It was Mid-July and the heat on set was unbearable. I grabbed one of my pre-made smoothies out of the fridge, and my phone and walked out to my car. I got in, buckled up, and turned on my favorite playlist, it had songs from Emily, and Arctic Monkeys. Rockstar came on first and I smiled, it was my favorite Emily song. I started my car, and drove to set.

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I pulled up to see Steven and Christian walking to their trailers, and Steven had his arm wrapped around Christian, I wanted to cry. "Hold yourself together Lauren, just one more day, one more cruel day of this stupid life, and you can be done. One day." I said to myself and then got out of the car. I walked up alone to my trailer, and I looked over at Steven's and he was kissing Christian. I sighed and walked into my trailer.

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After I was dressed up as 'Maggie' I realized that today was the day I have to kiss Steven.

Oh Fun. [Sarcasm]

We had to run the scene about 10 times, and the last time, I kissed 'Glenn' passionately, I figured if I was gonna kill myself, why not get a kiss from Steven, that meant something, at least to me.

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Alanna, and Emily were gonna drive back to my house so we could get ready for going out to get coffee, we wanted to look and smell good.

After about 20 minutes we got to my house, and Alanna, Emily and I went inside, we all had to take showers, and I went first. I went upstairs and picked out an outfit and then I got into the shower.

[Okay Lauren’s showering and Emily and Alanna are talking in the living room]

"How do you think she's handling it?" Emily asked looking at Alanna, Alanna shook her head, "I don't know, she's seemed distant recently, like, broken." Emily nodded, "It hurts, Lauren's like my sister, and she probably feels like shit. I hate seeing her like this." Alanna hugged Emily, and then Lauren walked out and saw them.

"Woah, what's going on out here?" I asked, forcing a fake laugh. Emily looked up at me, "Laur, are you okay? We were just talking about Steve, and Christian." Alanna nodded, "We knew how much you love him, are you okay?" Oh god, I forgot I told them, "I'm heartbroken, but, I'll make it, it's just love, right?" I asked faking a smile, and they both nodded.

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A/N feels, I cannot. BUT THANK YOU TOO glaggieandrickyl for my new cover