Dreams of Forever

KABANATA ANIM

KABANATA ANIM

GIRLFRIEND

"Water." Engineer Castro said and gave me a glass of water. I think it's been an hour magmula ang nakakatakot na bangungot na iyon.

Engineer Castro was massaging my hand the whole time. He was so careful with what he is doing na tila ba mapuputol ang kamay ko kapag hindi niya iningatan yon. I was still in shock because of what I've dreamed about.

Para akong nasa taping noong napanaginipan ko yon. Madalas ay sa pelikula ko lang yon nakikita o di kaya sa mga teledrama. How can a human be that ruthless? Talaga bang matatawag pang tao ang mga taong gumagawa ng ganon?

How can they even sleep at night thinking of what they did? Do they don't have any conscience?

It wasn't my first time dreaming about that scene but I think the last time about almost 3 years ago, after my life went in danger that I almost died and someone saved my life. I thought that he was Anton that time because the timing was so weird. That was the first time that I felt safe in someone's arms

The way he hugged me was so similar the way Engineer Castro hugged me. Can it also be possible? Is he that person?Is he Anton?

Napatitig ako sakanya habang nakaluhod siya sa harap ko. He wasn't talking but he was observing me.

"Are you alright?" He said, starting a conversation.

"No, you're not him." I whispered but enough for him to hear.

No, he can't be that person. Mariella and Anton is not true.

They cannot be true.

Napataas ang kilay niya dahil sa pagtataka. I avoided his gaze by looking away. I can sense that he has something that he wants to ask me.

"Where is Kriselda?" I asked at binawi ang kamay ko

He stood up before answering "She went on the clinic." saktong pagkasagot niya ay ang pagpasok ni Kriselda, agad na lumapit sa akin ang bestfriend ko

"Okay kana?" She said. Her hand was with,bandage. Hinawakan ko iyon at agad na napaiyak

"I'm sorry" I cried "Hindi ko sinasadya"

Kaagad naman akong niyakap ni Kriselda, at inalo. "It's okay, I understand." She whispered.

Agad kaming umuwi matapos ang gawain nya. Dumiretso ako at nagkulong sa kwarto ko, still thinking of what happened earlier. My mind was too pre-occupied with so many things.

3 years ago, there was an accident where in I almost drowned. We were taping for my new drama and the set was in Daranak Falls in Tanay Rizal. I regret saying yes to that project because I have a phobia on bodies of water called thalassophobia. I did not know that there would be a scene where in I need to dip in that falls.

I know how to swim actually. I didn't know kung paano ako natuto. 

Basta, marunong nalang ako.

But then when I took a dip on that falls to practice the scene, parang may kung anong part sa akin na bigla akong kinabahan. I was alone that time actually. The staffs are away from me, even Dianne. I wanted to try it pero, muntik akong malunod. 

I was too hopeless that time, I thought that, that would be the end of my life not until someone showed up. He hugged me and saved me. That was the first time that I've felt safe on someone's arms. I lost my consciousness right after we got up on the water. After that, I dreamed of that scene, where in Lucas killed Anton and when I woke up on that dream, nasa hospital na ako.