Losing Control

Chapter 6

The day end pretty well I was happy and relieved at the same time because I had someone to talk to.

It's still hard for me,I don't know why I can't move on its like I still love my ex but I can't moved on for a fact that the two of my bestfriends destroyed me, Kassandra,kellan and me we've been bestfriends since our grade seven days. I always support theme talk to theme when they have a problems ect.

Pero sabi nga nila pag may aalis may dadating,pero Sana naman Wala nang umalis.

If no body got me I got me, that's my motto in life but after that shit happened di ko yata nasunod kase the day that I decided to end my life I knew for a fact that I lost.

Nakahiga ako ngayon sa Kama ko thinking deep.

I always keep so much pain inside myself, I grasp anger and loneliness and hold it in my chest,because I'm always there for someone when they need me but when I needed theme the most they left me.

All the pain 2 years ago changed me into a person I never meant to be.

But I guess it's for the best.

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Kinabukasan.

I was preparing myself to go to school,I ate breakfast nag paalam nadin Kay Lola kase papasok na ko,Bubuksan ko na sana yung pinto when suddenly it just swung open.

It was mama.

"What are you doing here?"I casually asked her.

She smiled sweetly "I just want to see you."

I rolled my eyes "well I don't." I said in irratation.

"Farrah!" Lola called.

I looked at Lola then sumenyas sya na mag sorry ako Kay mama.

I didn't bother"Yeah whatever,bye." I said then walk right pass her.

I quickly got to my car and drive my way to school.

When I arrived I can see Tyler naka cross Yung dalawang kamay nya leaning against his car.

I parked my car next to his since it was the only space left.

I saw him Gulped,then staired at me for while i staired at him to but this time he was the one who looked away , I finally got out of my car heading inside the campus.

Sinalubong ako nila Kelly at juanito they huged me both and kissed my cheeks.

"Are you okay na?" Kelly asked all of a suden.

"Yeah, thanks to the both of you." I said.

"Wala Yun Sino Sino paba magdadamayan kundi tayong magaganda diba?" Juanito said.

Instead of answering I let out a small smile.

We're talking some stuffs more like getting to know eachother as we walk at the hallway Kelly was at the middle of us.

Suddenly a crowd formed in the center of the hallway,Out of curiosity tumingin kami agad.

It's was the girl na nako pulupot Kay Tyler the other other day,kasama nya den yung Isa pang babae.

May Nakita rin akong babae nakaupo sa lapag,she looked like a mess her hair is all messed up you can tell na may sumabunot sakanya.

"That's what you get nerd!" Sigaw nya dito.

"I-m s-orry I didn't mean to bump on you." She said.

Wtf?nabanga Lang ganyan na?

Tatayo na Sana yung babae nang biglang sampalin Ito,kadahilanan para malalag yung salamin nya.

Okay this is enough!

Dali Dali akong umeksena I won't tolerate this kind of bullshit attitude.

"What the hell?!" Sigaw nya nang hawakan ko yung kamay nyang, Akamang sasampalin paren Yung babae.

"Let go!" Sabe nito,matalim ko Lang syang tinignan tyaka ngumisi.

"Ano ba! Let go!" Muling sabe nito.

"Sige sabe mo eh." Malamig na sagot ko.

Buong pwersa ko syang Binitawan na may halong tulak kadahilanan para matumba Ito. Narinig ko Yung mga bulungan ng mga ibat ibang estudyante sa paligid ngunit di ko Yun pinansen,binaling Yung atensyon ko sa sasabeng nakaupo kanina tinulungan ko to makatayo kinuwa Yung salamen nya tyaka sinoot sakanya.

"S-salamat" nahihiyang sabe neto tyaka yumuko.

"Who the fuck are you?!" Sabe nung babaeng tinulak ko kanina.

Imbis na sagutin tinignan ko Lang sya ng matalim,tyaka napangisi nang Makita ko Yung paglunok nya.

Lumapet ako sakanya "me?I'm Farrah."

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Tbc.