Am I to tell?

Time with Chris #being spied.

"Oh shit! What time is it? My goodness I had a prolonged night" it was 9:00 am on my clock, I was too late to get up that morning but someone was knocking! I think Chris has forgotten that today it is school, what am I going to do? "Good morning Loly! Are you still in the bed?" someone said out but I know the voice, it was Chris. "Oh Chris I'm already done, wait for me I'm coming" this time, I couldn't allow Chris enter my house, I wanted to know him deep first. Till now, Chris hadn't does anything bad or weird, he was just a nice guy. "What happened to you last night? What were you doing that caused you to wake up late? Aren't Canadian boys who are trying to deceive you?" Chris was starting to have jealous about me. "Hey, come on, what do you said? Do you think that I'm such a nerd girl who spends her whole night chatting only non senses with boys? I think you are wrong there and let me believe that you were kidding" I don't know what made me upset that time. "Sarah, relax I don't mean that. But why are you upset this morning? Is there anything wrong with you? Tell me if there is any, maybe I can help" I was shocked by his kindness, why can he act like that, I was really surprised. A boy doesn't know me well, we met on the road, I don't also know him as much... how can he wish to carry my problems together? I was asking myself many questions but Chris was behind waiting for me to respond to his questions. Really there was nothing happened at me during that night... I also didn't speak to boys because I was calling with Loly so I don't know what was running in Chris's head! "oh Chris don't worry about me, I'm just fine... and there is nothing I'm hiding from you, you know that you are my friend so I can't lie you... the reason why I woke up late this morning is because I spent much time on phone, chatting with my friend in Nairobi which is different from what you thought, I really don't spent much chatting with boys except you, when I want to know how my other friends in Nairobi feel, I have to ask Loly because she know my all friends so she has to update me every time I want'' he didn't add many other questions because we were also at the school gate. Even I was late, university isn't just like college where it is obligatory to get at school early, here you come the time you want it's up to you. "Ok Sarah, meet you at the hotel after class and of course have a nice class" Chris was really giving me more cares but I couldn't refuse them for he wasn't asking for rewards. Falling in love with Chris wasn't weirdness because he was such a nice guy also he was handsome, I think I deserve a boy like him. I won't decide to tell how much I love him because I believe that one day he will say it to me, so I kept quiet and I tried all I can to show him that I don't care if he love or doesn't love me, it's up to him but inside me I was crushing!

Ha! This love is so hard, it was like a burden but I was trying to simplify it. I couldn't forget what Owen has done for me, that's why I wanted to make sure if Chris wasn't trying to do the same things as Owen. Even I've tried to show that it wasn't hurting, but Owen crushed me a lot so that now, before trusting someone, I have to act like a police investigating a professional thief. My school life wasn't really interesting because at school, in university I used to mainly follow my studies, and also after class, I couldn't find enough time for my class mates, I had to do my job, I wanted to earn money so that I will built my independent future with enough money to feed my feelings and wishes.

6

Being together with my father was such bitter, I couldn't relax, no calls from Chris, it was really boring. My dad spoiled my weekend but I hadn't any other choice, he was my ruler, my father so I had to do what he wanted. As an international prosecutor, my father was coming to do his job mission here in Canada of course he wouldn't find any other lodge whereas I was there, so he had to lodge in my house. It was a stay of whole weekend, only two full days. Discussing with my father was such a mess I didn't want to do, but it happened. I couldn't tell my all stories alone in Canada I did tell my father only about school. For sure I wasn't such bad in class so my father wasn't worried about me, as I was wishing, he didn't ask me many part-life related, I was lucky then...