Do Soulmates Exist?

3.Nicole

I get out of my room and I notice that my roommate is awake,already.

I don't know how that woman does it,where does she get all that energy?

She gets up early,goes to the gym in the morning and still stays up all night,mostly with our friends. Nicole is a very respected girl in our friend group. I never really understood why. She doesn't seem threatening or anything, I think people say that stuff about her just because she's tall. She's really fun,but sometimes has her own problematic moments.

Example n.1,she throws up at almost every party we go to. I'm the exact opposite,because I don't drink alcohol. I have to stay skinny and it tastes bad. Everyone always told me : "well,you don't have to taste it", but how am I supposed to swallow it then? I can't stand alcohol. Example n.2, she hooks up with a lot of guys. Just guys though,she never made an exception for me.

I don't want to be one of those lesbians that say that they'll convert a straight girl, but I secretly think I deserve a chance sometimes,because I'm prettier than a man. Whatever, that's how the world is.

"Good morning,Heather!" Nicole says, as she prepares some sort of drink. It's one of those vegan shakes that usually end up looking green and not pleasant.

"Hey, Nicky." I reply to her. "I support your veganism choice,but why do you have to make a mess in the kitchen this early?We both know you're never going to clean it."

"You know,you should try eating something healthy for breakfast sometimes, and not just cigarettes. Here,try it!"

"Okay first of all, I don't want to taste that green stuff and second I don't smoke cigarettes. It's maryjane. The only green stuff that'll ever be near my mouth."

"You do you. Hey,do you want to help me clean up this stuff later? My friend's coming back from Russia and I want to make a good impression."

"See,that's what I told you. I'm not going to do that. Your dear friend will have to see that you're a lazy,weird vegan woman."

"Heather! You're always so mean! Can you save some of that,so we can smoke with my friend later?"

"Sure,whatever."

So now I have to save my weed for someone I don't even know. Yay. I really hope Nicky won't leave the kitchen dirty. I know she's capable of that, she's so trashy sometimes.

I go outside and I sit in the backyard. From my pocket, I get out my blue lighter. "Time to zone out" I think to myself.

I eventually fall asleep in the chair. It's so peaceful, having to forget about the worries of the world. I'm starting my junior year of college and honestly I'm not that worried,because nothing can be as bad as last year was. I was struggling with severe depression caused from the fact that the only two friends I had turned out to be awful manipulators. I loved them so much and this is what they give back to me? Let's talk about the worst one, Tatiana. I dumped Mackenzie for her, earlier this year.

Even after being cheated on. She blamed it on her bipolar disorder,said it was dumb and impulsive while crying her soul out.

Great performance. She seemed genuinely sorry. What didn't convince me was that she literally cheated on everyone she had been in a relationship with. Cheating,lies and manipulating are her signature things. Don't forget about the incessant crying and being annoying to anyone. The problem is that I've always been obsessed with her. We went to high school together and she was one of the first people I made friends with. We really had a special bond, we were still friends until a few months ago I got tired of her shit and ghosted her. I don't think words can describe how deep our bond was and how pissed off I was when she decided to hurt me. I managed to not fall into her radar of people that she hurt throughout high school, but just one year after she decides that it's time. There's not a single person she didn't have problems with. I always kind of idolised her in a way,because she had the courage to stand up to anyone who was against her. Years ago, she was victim of revenge porn. Apparently one of her girlfriends leaked a video of her giving oral. So other than being called a slut, she had all kinds of homophobic slurs yelled at her in hallways. That completely destroyed her emotionally. I think that's why she turned out like this. The same year, she went off having sex with every boy she could find, to try to prove everyone herself that she was straight. Eventually,she came out as bisexual. Everyone excluded her from social groups for this. It's not even like she could hide it, everyone knew what she had done. There were some gay people in our school who were out and accepted,yet she was the only one who was ostracised. I'm so glad I never came out. I dated her for a few months in senior year. After that, I ended up being completely obsessed with her. She still often crosses my mind.