Hidden Dangers| Spencer Reid

[5]Hallucinations

Spencer's P.O.V

11:25pm, I glimpse down in regards to my aged and worn out wrist watch, as I notice the exquisite shade of silver stripped away, replaced with a coat of musky grey. To your surprise, here you are back at the contemporary accomodation, you stationed directly outside the shared room with JJ, contemplating on the conversation you are to conceive with her. Our last encounter wasn't necessarily ideal.. leaving quite a lot for us to talk on. I twist the gold plated door knob, cautiously and discreetly to avoid drawing attention. As the door hangs opens wide, I am encapsulated within the bleak darkness of the accomodation, unable to identify my surroundings. "JJ?" I whisper in an raspy tone, as I squint to locate her whereabouts.
"Hmm?" She lifts her head from the overstuffed king sized pillow whilst tucked under the thick layers of bedding. "JJ"  I immediately close shut the door, As I pace besides her, crouching down by her side onto the toasty warm beige carpet as my hand snakes towards hers, as I softly grip onto her delicate, and warm palm. "I'm so sorry JJ, I'm such a fucking idiot.." My emotions erupt, as I break down apologetically.
"Spencer, please slow down". JJ's tone nurtures every ounce of desolate, pain, and void I've imprisoned in this flesh.
"S-Some t-times I s-still have urges to t-take.. Di-di-"
"Spencer, come here" JJ invites you into a comforting hug as warm salty fluids stream down your cheeks, as you tightly rest your arms around her, refusing to lose touch of reality. "The u-urges have l-left a p-profound affect on m-me.". I pause taking in a deep breath of air, to assist myself to effectively formulate a sentence. "Recently it's been causing me to have incredibly vivid hallucinations, and d-dreams..." All the pent up guilt finally releases as a continuous stream of tears glide down my heated cheeks, breaking through the tough exterior you once had obtained.
"Spencer, thank you for letting me know". You loosen your grip on JJ as you face her loving and gentle smile. "Sometimes JJ I don't even know what's real and what's not.." I whisper as I sense the build up of fear begin to consume me from within. JJ caresses my check lovingly "Spence, I want you to know that this moment right now doesn't simply exist in that intellectual head of yours. It's real. What we have between us is concrete, existent, and real. I love you so much Spencer, with all my heart, if you need anything i am here for you, by your side. Always". You plant a kiss hungrily on JJ's sultry lips. Short, yet enough to have the both of you craving for more. You lift yourself from your position and change out of your work clothes, leaving you in your boxers. You locate yourself next to JJ, your bodies radiating warmth into the confinement of the room. It was just a hallucination. Y/N isn't.. here anymore....  You affirm convincing yourself as JJ snakes herself to your chest, leaving light kisses on top of your bare skin. The two of you lie in complete silence as the two of you consciously drift away into a deep, deep slumber.

Your eyes flicker awake, pulling you out of your deep slumber. You adjust to the intense bold and radiant illumination peeping from the large glass window beside you. Sensing a pair of eyes hooked onto you, you turn to see a beautiful half naked Y/N dressed in French black laced under garments, facing towards you with a sultry glare as she lays in bed staring directly towards you. "Morning sleepy head, haven't seen you in a while."  She giggles flirtatiously whilst you stare straight directly towards those deep eyes of hers, completely oblivious to the fact you're dreaming of her, once again. "W-what are y-you d-doi-"?  Y/N interrupts you as she adjusts closer to you, moving her lips to your ear lobe, as she whispers "you miss me Doctor, other wise you wouldn't be thinking of me so much".
"Of fucking course I miss you. I miss you so fucking much that I would overdose just to be with you again. I would grant my life away if that meant I could hold you in my embrace once more". You retort suddenly feeling an abundance of grief wave over you.
"What about Blondie?  Don't you.. love her..Doctor?" she whispers seductively into your ear as she leaves small kissed along your jawline.                            
"O-of c-course i l-lov-"                                                                                                                       Y/N stops planting delicate kisses, and locks in eye contact with you. "Don't lie to me Spence. You're stuttering, and we both know that's a bullshit lie. Otherwise you wouldn't be dreaming of right me now half naked."                                                           
" I-I'm d-dreaming-g?"