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➵ Angel Dust asmr's and small night talk

okay, i am crying rn...

and i am listening to Angel Dust asmr's that keep me sane and insane at the same time.

idk what to feel...

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I'm sorry this sounds so weird, sensitive and needy. I hate being needy, ughhhh. Okay, uh...

It's like...00:13, my favorite time, ngl.

And i'm laying in bed, tears running down my cheeks while i have a stupid smile on my face with earphones plugged in and Angel Dust asmr playing while I type here and hope that the phone doesn't fall to my face.

I wish someone can cuddle me rn. Ha, i got my pillows and stuffed toys but y'know, someone hugging me from behind, watching me read fanfictions and tell me to get tf to sleep. Honestly, i want an Angel Dust, i am so sorry ahhhh, this is weird but, hey just a fangirl, amirite. i'm a sucker for guys in skirts...we really need to normalise that.

I just love Angel's voice and accent. It's cute, badass, sexy, calming at the same time. And the little, raspy growls...erghhh. And his constant swearing, its dang attractive. mmmmmmmmm.

Just imagine his floof pressed against ya. And that smirk, STOP.

aight, i'm listening to the Angel Dust asmr by Laz Briar where he rescues you and stuff. I-...i cant, bro.

idk, i feel like actually talking. Y'know...a call or something with someone, haha. I have some voice recordings though, sometimes pretend it's a radio broadcast and podcast. I actually do have some podcast episode, i keep it to myself though. It's an actual podcast with an intro i made and stuff. I named it Heartbreak Hotel, inspired by Hazbin Hotel of course. The original idea of the podcast is just me talking late night and just say relatable, fangirl stuff. Like this books actually! I listened to some recordings of mine and put some of the words here because I usually rant to myself and got no one to talk to so...why not record it and start a little podcast.

FUCK THE PHOEN FELL ON MAH FACE HAHAHAHA

But then releasing the podcast idea was scrapped...because I knew no one would bother to listen or probably not relate to the hazbin rants i do and its probably embarrassing and what if someone who knows me finds out and AAAHHHHH---

aight, i also had therapy sessions to myself. I'm actually considering on releasing that cause i guess it actually helps, plus i could edit my voice with a little radio tone like Alastor's!

or...idk, yo im awkward af XD

i mean, soon probably....

ahhhhhh....

Please donate me an Angel Dust.

update im gonna add:

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH

im crying. ooohhhhhh---

aight, soooo stuff happened here. so i lay down my bed and listened to some other Angel Dust asmr's...

And then i started crying.

He was talking about mental health and wha he just said. It broke me. I cried and tried to hold in my sobs.

To be honest, this isn't the fangirling cry it's...the actual...sad cry. AGH.

I'm just tired of people pretending to care and asking how are you? And you say you're okay but you're not actually okay....

* remembers that one meme where they say, when ur fine but your not actually fine-*

ANYWAY--

yes.............:)))))))

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