Miss Me When I'm Gone

1.12.15

This picture. Fabalous rightt?

So once you see that picture you think this is gonna be a happy update yeah ?

Well not exactly.

Actually my day sucked and I'm feel like crying.

It was good at first. I saw jacob and I was like "jacooob"

Then in Spanish I talked to this kid Corbin. He was like "the buckeyes (my favorite college football team who played today in the national championship and spoiler alert won!!!) are gonna lose" and I was like hell nah.

So computers is where it started getting iffy. It's fun to sit next to gabby in computers. In fact I love it so much. But I hate making people mad, I hate it.

After computers Mia was walking behind me and gabby and she looked sad about it. So she didn't talk much to me at all so I was like oh shit.

So then at lunch she left to go to the bathroom I think and then a bunch of people flooded in at our table (Mia always sits next to me) so I was pushed into her spot. So when she came back I made a pretty good effort to make room for her but it didn't work so she sat next to gabby.

She ended up going home.

I get that her and gabby are best friends and I don't really want to ruin that but it seems like she might get mad at gabby because of me.

So then aside from that, people don't like telling me things anymore. Like when did I become untrustable? I'm not the fucking jealous type cmon now.

Well anyway back to recess. I wanted to talk to mady and Krystle and jacob, then mady hit me really hard in the boob and it didn't seem like much but it was with her pointy ass elbo and they were like "what are you even ow-ing at?"

Sorry I'm in fucking pain I'm a lady.

I was alright the rest of the day but after school gabby was being so weird and it was about the thing she didn't tell me about and so I was like well why the fuck does everyone else know. I know now but I was probably being really fucking annoying.

The only good thing whatsoever about this day was that the Ohio state Buckeyes won the national championship.

I know I'm annoying

And stupid

And ugly

And unwanted basically everywhere

And I scratch at my god damn acne which makes me even uglier

And don't give me the bullshit

I already know.

_lizzie