1.25.15

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by elizabethyurcisin

by elizabethyurcisin

I had the absolute most horrible day today and I don't even know where to start.

It's was totally fine up until about 12:30.

So here's the story :

Calista invited me to the mall. I got all excited and I was going to meet up with them at 1. Well then my brother decided he would start a fight with my mom. And so I went in my room cuz I didn't want to hear the bullshit. My mom asks me a question from the living room which is kinda far from my room. So I yelled the answer so she could hear me. Then my dad stomps up the stairs and starts fucking screaming at me "STOP YELLING AT YOUR MOM! IM 3 SECONDS AWAY FROM NOT LETTING YOU GO TO THE MALL!" And he goes into his room and slams the door. I'm thinking what the fuck? He comes out of his room "TEXT YOUR FRIEND AND TELL HER YOURE NOT GOING" so I'm like so confused because excuse me I didn't do jack shit. Now i go up to my mom and I'm like "hey um I had nothing to do with your fight" and she fucking ignores me! Now at this point I really didn't give a fuck about going to the mall so I tell my brother "hey do you mind taking responsibility and not let this fall on me?" But of course not.

So the whole fucking day my dad leaves the room I'm in, rolls his eyes at me, screams at me or some shit.

Reminder I DIDNT DO SHIT.

then my moms like acting like nothing happened. Like excuse me can you talk to your husband about his anger issues please.

He was literally making Mount Everest out of an ant hill.

Funny thing is I don't even know what they're fighting about about.

And everytime I tryed to talk to him he would roll his eyes at me.

Thanks dad.

Just to stay away I stayed in my room. And would you guess? I got yelled at for that too!

So I read my book. And I got yelled at for that.

My brother kept calling me worthless.

My dad just can't listen. He always has to be right.

And my mom thinks I'm just a joke!

I wish I could go back to the day I was gonna kill myself because I now know how everyday is going to be like from now on.

I'm writing this from the gym. I won't go home for a while.

I don't know how I'm gonna face school tomorrow.

This always happens and nothing is my fault.

I hope I don't make it home

Or wake up

So the pain

Will

Fade.

_lizzie