Lost - draco malfoy

thirteen

- Patience by The Lumineers -

I had left Draco sitting in a puddle of his own thoughts in the corridor. I hated how he was so bloody stubborn.

I could tell something had been dwelling heavily on his mind, but he refused to let me in. I guess I couldn't blame him though, we weren't friends. We weren't even close to being remotely friends. The only reason I attempted to extend a hand of comfort to him was because of my aunt Maggie who had always drummed into me that everyone's fighting their own battles. Sometimes the most cocky and intolerable people were the ones that were actually the most broken. I was still trying to figure out if that was true.

However, he had rejected it. I didn't blame him. If it was the other way around, I would've acted in the same way. But then again, Draco would never even open the door slightly for me to tell him anything.

I had slowly found my way back to Blue in the Great Hall, but I wasn't present in the moment as he danced me around the floor. My mind kept tracing back to the moments before Draco had burst out of the room. I had been on stage, filling the room with my voice when I caught him staring at me, and when I didn't look away, it looked like something snapped inside of his brain, causing him to leave.

I wasn't quite so sure why I didn't look away. I guess I wanted to see if he would. But he didn't.

The night was coming to a close as giggling couples left, hand in hand, discussing their next moves. I desperately hoped I didn't run into any of them later that night.

I had let my body move along the floor with Blue for what felt like forever, I was too tired to make an excuse for it to end. I was also surprised that he didn't leave as soon as his friends did, they had left as soon as it was appropriate to. They wanted to begin the after party in the Gryffindor common room. I felt bad, they had left their dates here. That made me feel grateful that I had such a guy like Blue, he wouldn't ditch me.. At that moment, I knew he cared more about me than he did his reputation.

That was until he leant down and breathed in my ear, "Let's go back to the common room, I'm sure everyone's having a bloody good time over there."

Well, he had lasted longer than I expected him to. I was also slightly grateful, the dancing had started to become tiresome. Although I was grateful to stop dancing, I didn't want the night to end just yet. I knew that as soon as we went back to the common room that it would mean our night together was over. It was the same every time, he would tell me he'd be back "soon", disappear off with his friends and never return.

I would always be left waiting for someone who had no intention to return.

"Or... I don't know... we could take a walk? Or something... like that?" I suggested, joining his eye contact. "I know it's bloody freezing out there, but we could walk around the-"

"That sounds great, but I'd hate to let my mates down. You understand though, right?" He smiled down at me, still holding me in his arms.

I broke away from his hold, I thought about saying something along the lines of... "Merlin's beard. You should've brought one of your mates as your date to the ball instead" but instead, all that came out was, "Okay, see you there."

Pathetic, Bella. Just like Draco had always said.

Blue had left as soon as I had given him the permission to. Well, our night together was over. And in that moment, I felt lonely as I stood by myself and watched as the hall started to empty. I watched as couples left together, Neville and Ginny one of the few who remained. Oh, how I wished to one day have someone who would hold on to every moment they had with me.