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004 || Thoughts

hello everyone, it's me won again and today i think i'll just talk about something what's going on with me.. ?

so, like i am someone who likes to read and get know  more about various things, in various fields and things. it kind of like catches my attention and i just can't help but read about that particular thing, or just to get more info about it. there was this, Ju*** case on insta which my one of my friends had shared it to me, and it was graphic. it wasn't very nice, i think if anyone here who knows about that case must about be knowing what i exactly mean here. but, for me that wasn't really done there, i ended up searching about it all and read, find pictures, and watch several videos over the same topic and thing – just to like know more about it, to have enough or every info about this case because it, it like may have – i might have taken interest into it. and now i think i kinda regret because the pictures, and the words are like stuff in my head and i can't remove or forget about them.

it wasn't the only case i have looked into, or just searched about it, there are so many of them, like i can't even remember how many i have read or just get info. the Lo***** Fa****, and He*** **t*, and there so many more, there were the famous ones (?) i am not gonna like, show their names because too absurd to be written here, because i know there are kids – teens here and it's definitely not the best for them to search up. they're just gonna end like me, if i do that? my best friend always tells me not to watch them anymore, the videos or the real like shouted ones, or whatever. but as i said before, it just.. it's fun for me??

there are so many thoughts in my head, so many of them, so many scenarios, so many just everything is up there and i can't find myself to remove them or just stop it, because i like it that way? it makes me uh happy, – not happy but like.. it's okay? at nights i these some real weird visuals in my mind, of what i have seen, the things i have seen on the screen or the videos, the photos, the crime scenes, the places where those incidents took place, the graphics, the info about how the things had taken place, how they were murdered – what happened later, the psychopathic ways of murdering someone who doesn't deserve it? how they later on, like don't feel guilty or show any emotions, the kids, the babies, the just everyone whom i have read about or seen. it's all up there. it's weird but okay.

i tend to ponder about each case that i have read for a long time, till i find myself some answers or to clear out some points or statements. for example, today i watched this case, and now i was pondering about it so i thought of writing this here? i know it makes no sense but, yeah. i just wanted to say this all, for no reason? it was something that i have always wanted to speak out or like talk about it, and today i did it i guess.

let me know your thoughts if, um anyone read this lol

-won.