- 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞!

008 || Trying Something New! + Rant

hello everyone! it's been days since i have written something so today i am gonna do that teehee.

so my best friends and i have opened a YouTube channel together - 'Chaotic House!'. well, my best friend and i have always wanted to start one together but we couldn't really do it properly back than, but before a month or two, we started our channel together and now it's going pretty smooth! i am really proud of everyone for their hard work! we have like 110+ subs and we recently released our 3rd video like a few days back! we soon will start with another one once Diwali ends. oh and that reminds me of this year's Diwali hehe. 

well like nothing is happening this year, like none and i kind of like it. you may be thinking 'why does she like the fact that they won't be celebrating a festival?' and my answer is, firstly - there will no pollution this year than! every year (excl. this) there was always such a high level of carbon in the atmosphere, just a mess. it would always be so dirty outside because always using the products, the people won't clean up there mess on the road and literally everywhere! there would be like dark clouds outside in the evening when it dews, my mom says it's because of the pollution and it made sense. secondly, this year people need to be very cautious and be careful whilst going out but i am sure they won't be since all they will be thinking is of playing with crackers out and that won't happen! thirdly, there was always so much of noise! at the night, in the morning, evening, like every time! specially, at the night because that disturbed our sleep so much :( and that's why i like the fact that people won't be able to play with crackers this year!

since, we started our channel, i had a urge to start a channel of mine as well. and that's what i did! - 'annuberryyy'. i have made two videos till now (with a tiny video whilst passing time) and all of them are mini vlogs hehe. i have made two playlists for people ; 1 - mini_Vlogs 🌱, 2 - random uploads. they are both public, i made them so that it's easier for the ones who are subscribed and the ones who will watch. it will make it easier for them to find videos! the playlist - random uploads, mainly consists of my time pass uploads, such as some kpop content and that time pass editing yada yada. and i am pretty satisfied with how things are right now! Diwali holidays are going on and everyone is probably trying to freshen up their minds by trying new minds or by doing something they like etc. 

now onto my mental state, i think i am doing quite well but everyone has some of 'those' times. and that is alright. i have someone who is a great friend and listens to me when i need someone to listen to me and advice me. and they are always there for me and that means a lot. i do not know much about them but i can truly say that they are someone who i can trust upon and always rants to. and they always say the right thing. i get to learn a lot from them, a lot of good things and i am following what they've told me. i feel much better and merrier nowadays and i hope it stays the way it is now for a while. i'd be so happy, it's a festival season and i hope everyone is happy. oh, i am kind of worried about my friends and something. i know everyone has something that they cannot share with others and tend to keep it to themselves, and that kind of worries me. i hope they find a way to release all of that, it would be so hard for them to endure it all by themselves - something not right. i wish them luck and happiness. be strong! 

misunderstandings, i really hate this word. i have a personality where my mood very frequently and i unfortunately can't control it. for example, i will tend to dislike someone for no apparent reason and might turn very shady and hateful towards them, and also might say something inappropriate or bad. and i do not want that to happen so i just block that person out to avoid all of that. but not everyone is ready to listen to their 'friend'. and i personally do not like that because no one is saying anything. it really angers me but it can not be helped. and i think apart from this, i am doing pretty good am stable.

i am trying my best to have a better and a healthier mental health. i am trying to avoid everything negative or things which anger or make me uncomfortable in any way. so that is why i am have been trying out new things in life, to experience and to distract my mind from all kinds of evil. if you do not attention to the evil, it will leave. that is what i am trying to do, and i hope it turns out well. i wish everyone happiness and good luck. 

[not edited]have a good day/night! and thank you for reading! 💛 

-won.