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Moving on

Taehyung takes a look at the diary and his eyes fall upon the yellow bookmark on a page. "Open it" Yoongi says. It's was already evident it belonged to Hoseok, and he used to write in it often. On the page headed 30 December, it read :

To the ones who made this life, one of the best ones I've ever been in,

Life has been a roller coaster ride, ever since you all have been there, not that I don't like it, but I feel happy. Thanks for hanging in there for me. Do know that Hobi loves you all. To even start this with, I don't even know if I could have that slightest wish to remain alive, all this while. But, this was before I got to know you. When you were there, I felt living every moment a bit more, smiling widely for the first time, I guess. I wished to disappear slowly. Everytime, I joked about dying, I saw you all in tears, it made me feel as though I'm loved. Thank you for everything, be it for telling me to live, when I didn't want to, or be it for mimicking those weird dance steps, that I once made. I guess this is the least I could have ever done : to pen it all down in a piece of paper :)

Namjoon is that friend who was always something more than that, something greater than every good thing I could ever know of.

The said boy smiles at it.

Yoongi is that brother for whom I could give my life for, my only soulmate.

Yoongi was probably the one who had been the strongest. "You should have lived your life for me" He whispered. "Idiot"

Jimin? The one who took me to a bike ride and we shouted all the way, that day. Remember?

"This boy, I swear" Jimin laughed.

Jin hyung, the one with whom I never had a good term, or so I thought. Thanks for being this one hell of a friend, hyung. I'll miss your kimchi.

"I miss you" The oldest of them sniffles.

The one who actually told me not to leave him ever again while crying on my shoulders, that day ; that's my Jungkookie. I'm so proud of you.

"I thought you'd stay, hyung" Jungkook put up a faint smile.

And, Taehyungie?
The one who joked about me looking like a horse
The one who gave me a sunflower, saying he loves me, that one time in our high school days
The one who was always made me happy so easily
How can I even think about forgetting you?
This is it, you are scored up on my heart, from the first day you walked up to me, wearing those grey sweatpants, with a straight face and telling me to be your friend.
Remember Tae, Hobi loves you.... But, go find another happiness, I'll always be up there, protecting you all :)

Taehyung didn't want to open this diary. But, he did anyways. Maybe, he thought the memories would hurt, but reading this made him feel as though Hoseok would still return to him in some new form. He smiles, holding the diary even more carefully and continues reading.

They said I don't have time, and I gladly thought so. But, within this short span, I experienced something much more than ever. I learned to live my life, I learned to love you all, over and over again, I learned to smile, and most of all, I learned to never let you go....
You made me realise, I was worthy of loving and I couldn't thank you any less for that.

Even if this letter didn't do justice to express how much happy I'm to even die near you, still, I'm thankful. Taehyung used to ask me what is the best part of me, in those days I spent in the stinky hospital room. Now, I say it. You, all of you, are the best of me, the best part of me.

You see? No time.

But that's okay, I never was a fan of dramatic goodbyes. Now, that my time ends, doesn't mean the same for you all. You need to love, smile, and never stop living. It's funny how satisfied I even feel writing this, you all are just the best. As much as I would have loved it with you, do know that you are as amazing, even without me. Go, live your life, that's the only way I'll be happy....

Let's not cry over this, and meet again in some other universe, okay?

I love you all, I'll remember you, I'll remember this bittersweet journey, filled with some happy and sad memories, with all of you making me cry and smile over and over again. And I'll remember to thank those lucky stars, for it was me who got you all, for it was you who made me feel complete and for the amount of self restraint I hold, to actually not laugh and cry simultaneously at these memories that I created with you all. The ones that we created.

Thank you for everything
Live your life. Just 𝙡𝙞𝙫𝙚.

̶G̶o̶o̶d̶b̶y̶e/Love,
Hoseok

Reading the letter, the boys knew it was Hoseok's way of bidding them a goodbye. The picture of them still with his letter made others adore him and this friendship even more. They would leave this diary in a safe corner of the house, and keep getting back to it, whenever they feel Hoseok is missing within them. They would grieve, move on, and live, because that's the only way Hoseok wanted them to. And if Hoseok was right, they all might again meet in some other universe, in some other backdrop and another timeline.

They once again look up at the picture of them on the wall. It's their best part. The most beautiful one.

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The end.......