The ultimate love melody

Confused

Woah, so intense right?! I'm really stressed about choosing my GCSE's and I have like loads of test coming up, so I might not update but I will once it's finish :) ok guys let's get (can't believe I'm saying this) 250 reads for another chappie. Im introducing this new thing where I update with votes so I'll update early as long as I get 20 votes. pps: im getting writers block so soz if this aint good.
Si has feelings for me?! Ever since I was little girl I just wanted someone, something to say 'I have feelings for you.' I looked plainly at Si with shock. Si's initial smile on her face disappeared and was replaced with fear and hurt. But I didn't want to hurt her. I liked her. As a friend. As a sister. As a lover? I don't know! I didn't think of her like that until now. I couldn't face her. I looked and the ground and kicked my feet a couple of times. Si, hurt rushed out of the bathroom and I'm not sure, but I swear she was crying. Great. Another person I've hurt! Why! Why, do I have a compulsive need to destroy everything around me?! But hurting people was the least of my worries. I has far more important things to worry about. French. I wiped my tears and tied up my hair before looking in the bathroom mirror and exhaling one last time.
'You can do this Meesha.'
I walked out of the safety of the bathroom to the battlefield that is the school corridor. I went to my locker and grabbed my French book and checked my locker to see if I have double or single French. 'Shoot! Double French and Geography!'I said loud enough that Madame Marie (who had magically appeared the moment I diss French, again story of my life.) shot me a look, before shaking her head and muttering 'Cretin.'
I gave her a dirty look (not to her face, im not mad) before saying 'Kool Khara' (eat ****)and returning back to my locker. I looked back at my homework timetable. There was a bold notice written in scarlet red "GEOGRAPHY DUE IN 1 WEEK"
Shoot, I was going to ask Si cousin Sandrine to help me with it; Guess I'll just have to wing it- like that will get me an A*. I was distracted by my thoughts when the bell rang. I took out my geography book and went to French. I opened the French classroom door and suddenly all eyes were on me. I had too much on my plate to worry about people giving me dirty looks. I sat at the back, by myself. Madame Maire came flouncing in swaying her floral dress from side to side.
"Bonjour mon petit!"
"Bonjour, Madame" we all said.
That was about the highlight of my French lesson. The rest of it was just Madame going on about some Infinitive verbs and some jibber jabber. I wish that I was back in year 9 when French was exciting. We had this awesome teacher who told us how to curse in French (yes Madame Marie, I know what you said) anyway she got fired at the end of the year and we got Madame Marie.
'Meesha Abdul!' Madame Marie firmly said just as I was drifting to sleep.
'Yes miss.' I shouted, causing the whole class to laugh. So much that Madame Marie had to hush the class.
'What is a reflexive verb?'
I looked at her handwriting blackly trying to connect the dots. You know when you try to remember something and it's just desperately failing? Well, that's me.
'Um.. when a....its when....'
'No that's not the answer!' Madame Marie said which caused an uproar of laughter, Madame Marie then went ahead to actually high five members of the class. Great even a teacher laughs at my expense. Well as the French say, C'est la vie! ( I am disturbingly optimistic at times) After being totally humiliated, Madame Marie then went on to explain that a reflexive verb was when the subject and the object was the same or something like that which was actually what I was going to say. Finally, The lesson from hell ended and I was faced to drag my body- which had already been scarred by Double French, and put it through a geography lesson- amazing! When I entered geography, there was only one spot. The one next to Si. I slowly walked and sat next to her while groaning softly. Great! I now had a new objective for Geography- make sure you don't burst out of the room crying. Sounds realistic. Ms. Newsted who was teaching us (image in the description) for the lesson got up and said
' Now, I know how some people are stuck with the assignment I set you, so I looked up on the YouTube and googled 'Amazon Rainforest' and I stumbled upon a very good video about it.'
I could tell her age by the fact that she said 'the YouTube' (seriously?) and the fact that she 'googled' something on YouTube.
20 mins later
The whole class, looked in distress at the teacher. I had never seen anything like what I just saw.
'So, any questions?' Ms. Newsted said like nothing had happened. There was a reason she wasn't married and it seriously needed to be addressed. Everyone, began to slowly shake their heads and take out their pencil cases. Jessica even began to cry. Eugene, who was the class bigmouth, stood up disappointed and said
'No questions.'
Ms. Newsted simply shrugged and replied
'Good, now get on with that worksheet I gave you last lesson.' And with that she sat down casually and began to file her disgusting old yellow fingernails. I looked down and my work and sighed. Just more coursework for our essay. Apparently, it's very important as it counts for about 20% of our final grade. I was distracted from my work when Si nudged me.
'Not even a hello.' Si said sharply
'Sorry'
I continued with my work. Surely enough, Si nudged me again. Gee, it's like a freaking crackhouse up here. Can't do you stuff without getting disturbed.(of course the reasons of getting disturbed are completely different.)
'I thought you out of all people would understand.'
I don't know why she would think I'd understand. I've never had a girlfriend nor have I ever been put in a situation where someone tells me they have feelings for me.
'Sorry'
'Is that all you can say for yourself?! Your freaking pathetic!' Si said so loudly that the whole class turned their head towards us to see what was going on. When Si, realized that the whole class was looking at us, she ran out of the classroom crying. I guess you could say my objection was half fulfilled even though it wasn't me. I reluctantly walked out of the classroom to follow Si.
Dammit! I thought I had at least another day to prepare for this. I had no idea what to say, I guess I just say what's in my heart.
'Si, wait' I shouted when I caught up with Si
'What!'
'Sorry!'
'Sorry? I've had my arse handed back to be and all you say is sorry?!'
'Yes,' I replied. Si looked at me stunned. I was stunned at myself. But I processed anyway.
'Yes, I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I've hurt you. But I never meant to. But I did and I'm sorry. Im just confused. I don't know what to think anymore. I'm not even sure if I'm gay! I've never been with anyone.'
'You hurt me and I don't -'
'I'm not confused anymore ' I whispered
'What?!' Si asked with her half wft face half confused face
'I think I'm love with you'
Oh my god, I didn't think I'll pull it off but I did! Ok guys, comment. what ever your thinking write it down. Shout out to ash_herondale for being a good friend and having a great book! seriously guys, like mindblown good. Also can you recommend this book to your friends cuz my dream is to complete this good and get a series thing going on and I can't do that unless my book is popular by the time I finish.
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