Coin of ivory- A Sabriel fanfic

Chapter 7

-Sam's POV-

We searched the bunker around 6 times before completely giving up. Me, Dean, Cas and Gabe had all decided that we would wait for a bit. If Xaphan and Gusion did not come back soon, we would summon them and kill them. Thing is, I didn't particularly want to. While almost everyone was panicking about the possibility that the brothers had decided to kill another person, I decided to head into Dean's room. I know he's not some sorta expert with friendships and possible relationships considering the fact that most of them are just one night stands, but it just felt right to me. Besides, I needed to take my mind off everything, or just.. to have someone to talk to about my current problems.

For a while now, I've felt some sort of deep connection to Gabe. Deeper than with any other person, including my own brother. I wanted to keep him close to me forever. I wanted to prevent him from being traumatised again and I'd do literally anything to make him happy. I'd give that man the entire moon.

I knocked on his door gently.

"Dean, is it alright if I come in?"

"Of course, Sammy"

I opened the door and sat myself beside Dean, holding my head in my hands. "Sammy," Dean began "is this about the demons? Look, it's gonna be fine. If they don't come back we'll beat their asses, 'kay? You've got nothing to worry ab-" "it's not about that, Dean" I sighed. "It's.. about me and Gabe. Look.. I don't think my feelings towards him are normal. I wanna be able to hold him close whenever. I wanna wipe away his tears when he's upset, take him to see the most beautiful places on Earth.. I.. Dean. I think I.. no. No, I can't tell you this. It'll be like when I left you and dad. You're gonna hurt m-"

I felt him place his hands on my shoulders.

"Sam,"

he began.

"Where'd you even get the thoughts that I'd hurt you for what you think about Gabe? I'm nothing like dad. Sure, I wanted to be like him for a bit, but that was because he brainwashed me into being his little obedient soldier, and I'm not. I'm only hunting to protect the ones I love. Especially my little brother. Look, I know you don't know this, but.. when mom was pregnant in '82, I'd kiss her bump every night. I never forgot or couldn't be bothered because I was really tired or whatever. I still did it, and I would say to that bump that I'd be there to protect them forever and that I'd love them through thick and thin. If someone hurt them, I'd make sure to give the thing that hurt them a whole load of hell. I haven't ever went against those words I said to that bump when I was little. And Sammy, I never will. Hey, please don't cry. It's okay."

I felt him remove some one off his hands off my shoulder and used it to wipe the river flowing from my eyes.

"Sam, I'm not bothered whether you're gay, pansexual, bisexual, or any other lgbt+ identity. You're my brother and you mean everything to me. I'll always be there to support you. Besides, I'm in the same boat as you, I guess." He let out a little sigh. "I've fell so goddamn hard for Ca-" "that's no surprise there. I always suspected you liked him. Why're you waiting to tell him about your feelings though?"

"Same can be said for you. Sam, you can't just sit there and wait for him to come to you. You could be waiting a whole lifetime. Tell him. I think he'll love you back. I've noticed the romantic gazes you've been giving each other." Both of us couldn't help from laugh from that final sentence.

It was settled. I would tell Gabriel as soon as I had the time. It would've been right now, but I heard some sort of confused arguing in the main part of the bunker. From what I could tell, it was Cas and Gabe.

Judging from the sounds I could hear, a demon had appeared out of nowhere in the bunker, but no signs of the demonic allies we were working with.